Sunday, November 27, 2005Y

Me mp4 de cover spoil liao. So fast lehs. No wonder ppl say sim lim de products cannort trust de. Maybe me dad driving me dere 2ml tuh get it change. Dunn wanna bother jojo n her mum le. Wanna form a band. I noe xueting can sing. No offence, but I dink xueting can sing beta den Jamie n Sam bahs. Sam has sweet voice, jus tt she lyk cant sing it out lyk tt, dunnoe how tuh say. Jingting I still dunnoe lehs. My singing sucks, will try hard tuh improve. Thank God fer keeping me alive. Dont let me leave my world of music.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005Y

2dae woke up nort very early. Nit tuh prepare a bit. Lata jojo accompanying me go buy mp3 at sim lim dere. But me hab tuh follow dem go gib her aunt dings at orchard. My dad drove me tuh opp their bus stop. Dey arrive nort long after tt. We sat 700 and soon arrive at orchard. In the bus, I sat down next tuh jojo. Den we listened tuh her mp3. Passed things tuh jojo de aunt. Den her mum brought us tuh eat. I ate tom yam bee hoon. Hahas. Den went tuh book fair. I bought 1 book n jojo too. Den I went tuh tour in the Singapore biggest library. It has more den 10 lvl. But 1 lvl look already lyk BPCL. Sians. Sho big. But nort much books in 1 shelf, hahas.
We den finally arrive at sim lim. E whole building gort mp3. I went around asking, comparing e price. Wanted tuh buy already when I pass by a shop. Den a gurl ova dere showing us mp4. I was nort interested at all at 1st, cos in my mind already gort wad I wanted. But den it looks interesting. Sho I bought mp4 instead of mp3. wah! Erm, but space nort a lot. 512 mb nia. But its alrite. At least quite cheap. From $160, we bargain til $140. den finally get tuh chose wad colour I wanna. I chose blue. Cos e black I originally wanted does nort really look nice.the journey back tuh bp was nort long but nort short oso. Den jojo n I figuring out how tuh use the mp4. I went home, spent the reast of the day figuring out how tuh use it. Diao. Finally get tuh dl 103 songs in e mp4. gort 1 big prob now! I dunnoe how tuh dl video inside. Diao. Nvm. God, thanks fer letting me noe how tuh figure e mp4. now, cld u teach me how tuh dl video inside? Thanks.

Monday, November 21, 2005Y

2dae woke up nort very early. Went out tuh eat den visit ah kong. Went home early cos ah kong slp-ing, sum more mummy haben wash clothes. Whe I reached home, e 1st ding I do ish continuing wit my puzzle wit my sista. Spent my whole day trying tuh fix. Finally at evening, I complete it! I complete the 1000 pieces puzzle wit my sista. Was very happi den. I went out tuh eat dinner. Saw tt guy tt tot I lyk him. He wore diff clothes, I to the was some 1 else cos he was sting wit another guy. But in the end I confirmed its him. Cos b4 I walk off tuh e car park. I saw him wit his family.

Saturday, November 19, 2005Y

2dae woke up quite early. Went tuh mit Sam, jamie, xueting n jingting dey all. Walked tuh ks de hse. Tired n sticky when I reach dere, but hu cares. 2dae did nort attend e church wedding tt serene told me tuh. When we reach ks de hse. Sum times feel so extra. Cos dey all 1 grp de mahs. We played e DVD player, feel so sians. Den 1 by 1 e boys came. Afta tt ks serve drinks, we went tuh his room n played com. He dun hab ms, so we surf e net. We added Alvin in msn hahas. Den afta a while, ks de mum went home le. She cooked some food fer us. Nort some, but lotsa. Ate til we so full hahas. Trying tuh hack his acc.hahas.
we sang songs den Sam, Jamie n xueting recorded e songs into ks de hp tuh hear how dey sing, hahas. We played ps2 den we decide tuh go plaza le. S we went down e lift, Jamie mentioned tt she found a job le. Was surprised cos dey did nort asked me whether I wanna a job. Dey did nort ask me find job together? Wad m i? I m nort their close fwen maybe. Dey found acting dingy. I tot we were fwens, supposed tuh find job together. Was very sad, wanted tuh cry. But held back my tears. They sae if acting was nort successful, maybe dey changing tuh model. Yupp I noe, I m too fat, too ugly. Nort qualified tuh even be actress, be model. Dream on! Den dey sae, maybe I can find flyers job, do together wit jingting. I noe jingting n I ish from taf club. So wad? Tts mean dey can kick us aside? Its lyk pushing us aside.
I jus hate myself being so fat, so ugly. No matter wad, nth I do in my whole life ish successful. I m going crazy. Sum times I did things jus a bit beta den dem, maybe dey dink I m too proud. I dunnoe lahs. I reali wanna give up my whole life bahs. I fuck, I sucks!! So wad? Hu cares. I dunn wanna yx dey all change me le. No use. Wads e point!??! Its already a FACT. How r u supposed tuh change FACT? I m damn down!!! Thank God fer keeping me alive even though I dunnoe y mus I live on earth. Do I deserve it?

Friday, November 18, 2005Y

2dae woke up very early. Was expect tuh mit Denise fer morning jog and den basketball. But when I on my hp, saw e msg tt she cant make it. Sigh. I went back tuh slp. Den wake up again, sians. Was waiting fer e electric tuh cut. But it did nort happened!! Sigh. Complete my book of charmed. Return e book liao. Sians.
2ml going tuh ks de party. Actually dun feel lyk going cos I dunnoe wad tuh wear!!! But I m quite looking forward tuh it de. Hais. Wad tuh wear??
Caiyun bought mp3 fone le. But cant figure out how tuh use tt toopid program tuh transfer songs tuh de fone, hais. Sang songs 2dae. Sum times, I jus feel lyk I lost my world of music. I feel lyk s if I lost my feeling tuh singing. Jus simply cant open my mouth n sing de. Hais. 2dae, oso de same. Singing sucky liao. How??
Ask huiting bout tt netball file le. She said she still keep it wit her wit all those stuff in e file. I hope wad I saw was nort was I thought. I hope wad she sae ish true. I shld trust her rite?
Ppl sae I dun hab confidence in myself. Thank God fer keeping me alive. Make me hab sum confident in my life. Thanks lotsa.

Thursday, November 17, 2005Y

2dae I woke up quite early cos nit tuh go netball. Ruiling called me when I reached the bus stop waiting fer the bus. She said that she ish e only person in the sch, ask me faster come. Hahas. Me asked Valerie tuh help me do blogskin, hahas. I know she will be doing quite a good job de.
Me reached home bout 1 plus. Den ppl all began tuh call me. Denise called me suddenly ask me whether wan go back tuh pri sch nort. Cos gan die sick. Den we bought some medication fer him. We passed him e shirt n e medicine. Den he wan tuh pay us money, asked hu buy de. I dunnoe whether Denise wan me tuh tell nort, but in the end I told gan die tt ish Denise buy de.
We went tuh blue lab and played com. Veri sians, Denise oso. Hais. Den she wanna go down buy water. But realized that her wallet ish in the bag. Asked gan die tuh return her. Den gan die secretly put the money in to her wallet. She found out den return him, below his lap top! Hahas. Told gan die, gan die told Denise tt she was so silly.
Went tuh kfc outside pri sch, saw Diana& jiahui dey all. The 2/8 gals, tot tt yuhui will be dere. Hais. Den we return tuh sch again. Passed gan die woods e sweet. Denise bought de. Hais.
Went home afta tt. Thank God fer keeping me alive. Pls make Denise de life more beautiful. Nort aimlessly. . . .

Tuesday, November 15, 2005Y

tis ish me n caiyun, moi neighbour. finally can upload pic. tis ish e past me. nxt yr, u c a brand new me!! i will try lahs. hehes.


2dae I woke up early. I went tuh qiqi de hse. Played maple. Went up 2 lvl. Nort enuf! Cos nort enuf money!! But sum one called hell12 helped me by buying me things and helping me complete quest that wld receive 50 lemons. Thanks lotsa once again. Sms-ed shihui, told her tt e magic claw master lvl le, asked her tuh add mp de. She get it. Lata she helping me play tuh complete quest again.
I felt left when rl came 2dae at qiqi de hse. Me n qiqi drifting apart le. Cos we dun toke that much le. Normally she wld toke tuh me in msn de, but now no. maybe cos of ms bahx. She said that we cant get near rl, ppl hu get near her wld be under controlled. So but I dink that, maybe she lying tuh me? Shld I trust her, tuh pull her out from rl now, or shld I jus leave her alone? I dunnoe, God, pls tell me. Thanks lotsa.
Went tuh do cip, I knew that I wld be left out, cos Sam nort dere. Rl will be wit qiqi and Jamie wld be wit xueting. I dunnoe lahx. I nort a good fwen, tis of course shld happened. I toke tuh qiqi but she ish owas sticking tuh rl. I feel of course upset. We r no longer close. Maybe tis ish wad she sae, me n her will drift apart DE. I DUNNOE LAHX. But I treat her s good fwen le, den lyk tis! Hais. Teach me!!
We went tuh toilet. Jamie dey all keep trying tuh makeova me. Hais. I jus noe tt no matter how hard dey try, nth wld come out of it de. Wasting their time onli sia. Shld I give myself 1 more chance? But, I already tried de. I guess that Jamie dey all will give up halfway de, cos its impossible. Lyk Denise n Julia, nth came out of it. Dey tried too. Hais. Oyah, maybe I will be giving tis blogger add tuh xueting. Cos find her a trustworthy fwen. Wonder she wld read ppl de life de mahs. Dunnoe. . . thanks Jamie fer e hair band. I will try tuh make ova myself. Learn tuh be independent. Try bahs, tts all I can sae frm now. Cos really nth will come out of it de. Its nort that no confidence, tis is FACT. Thank God fer keeping me alive, me? I dunnoe. Cherish everyone n everything by my side. Even if 1 dae me n qiqi no longer fwen, I will rmb tt.

Monday, November 14, 2005Y

2dae I made my 2nd blog. Now listening tuh music SHE sing de disc. Hahax. New blog add ish my world of netball. Will contain all things bout netball. Frm 2dae onwards, tis blog will onli contain my personal life dingy, den netball things all ova dere. Hahax. New blog add ish www.ky-netballworld.blogspot.com. Jus now toked tuh Gabriel in msn. Surprise tt he wld be in msn cos he didnt reply my msg in email. Hahax. Will be cum chat fwen, gotta his hp no. surprise tt he wld ask me fer me hp no, cos didnt noe tt he chat in sms de hahax. Asked my cousin tuh help me play ms le. 2ml going qiqi de hse play ms. Den maybe go do cip hahax. Mus achieve more hours. Thank god fer keeping me alive. Let my parents learn tuh accept me playing netball. Injuries will be damn common.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005Y

2dae I woke up quite early cos gort netball training at 9.00am. I mit huiting outside sch gate at round 9 plus. We went inside, but aqilah n lynne was dere liao. Den we sat down when ruiling arrive. I dink tt imposing ruiling n shiqi when I wan tuh play ms ish nort a good dingy. Haix. but me nort using broadband mahx, sians.

2dae when playing netball, I wore my new sport shoe. My feet hurts!! Haix. but becos I wanted tuh defend Celine, I played on. Hahax. She at dere play play play. Ppl waiting fer ball, she still behind me. But mus compliment that she ish good in playing shooter. Of cos lahx, ruiling de hou dai mahx. Hehex. Feel down real hard. I dunn rmb y oso, but I knew maybe I hit Celine cos she was right beside me. Haix. but nort too bad day, cos aqilah n jamuna complimented me playing well n improved lotsa 2dae. Coach said tt I jus nit tuh wi\ork a bit harder n nort life weights in gym den I can be one of e 12 main players in netball. I m happi of cos. Becos I strive fer these words fer 2 yrs le. Now mus work hard. Jia you!

I worked in e bp library 2dae fer cip. Wanted tuh achieve 100 hrs so tt I can get more points when I finish my o lvl. Nort bad fer me 2dae cos whole dae doing art n craft. Going back again on thurs.

I find tt Celine resembles jia jia. I dunnoe how tuh treat her. We played too harsh tt dae. Now she see me will smile n toke tuh me. I wan tuh cherish her s my junior cos in netball I owas dunn hab fwens de, owas dey 1 side, I 1 side de. Now finally gort junior noe me, smile n I can be myself in netball le. I dunn wanna tell dem my past wit all netballer. Haix. Celine reali resembles too much lyk jiajia. Shld I treat her beta so tt I can make it up fer jia jia? Haix. God, pls teach me how.

Saturday, November 05, 2005Y

2dae woke up quite early. Ytd huiting sms-ed me mit her tuh sch 2dae. I reached e sch at round 8.17am. quite early. Waited s shimin walked towards me. I dun quite noe her but she talked tuh me. Hahax. But I really dunnoe wad tuh sae jus talk wadeva I can. Den Sheng ting sms-ed me asked me where me, I told her I at bus stop, den I met huiting. We played netball throughout e dae. Passed my photocopied result tuh coach. He did nort sae ant. Well, tts okie tuh me. I wanna be trained under coach Vivian, tts all I noe. I m waiting tuh mit her if I m lucky n if I had fate we her. If we had fate, maybe I wld be under her when I go JC. We will c bahx.

I was almost crazy in netball. Ruiling de junior, dunnoe wad her name, jus call her junior bahx, was lyk crazy when we fooled her around hahax. Junior was lyk pushing me around when I refused tuh gib her e netball. Den I took 1 Ball accompany me drink water cooler. Den 3 of my junior including her when tuh look fer me, wan tuh snatch e ball away. Hahax. We snatched e ball when I almost fell. Den Cecilia saw, n punished us. But it was fun. I asked dem whether dey wanna play again, 1 said yes, 1 said no, e other said she was innocent. Hahax. Hab tuh do 10 man pumping.

E netballers played wit guys from basletball team. Dere ish about 3 times when e guys hit my netball mates. Hahax. But it was fun tuh c dem play. E sch bought us mac, but I cldnt eat s it was chicken. Haix. nvm, can jian fei hahax.

Went tuh c ah kong. He slimed down. Fet swollen. He ish now very weak. I noe tt 1 dae he will jus leave us lyk tt. He jus wan tuh c us, missed us. I saw him, but s lyk normal, I cldnt understand wad he ish tokin. He watched teevee. E teevee showed babies n little children and he said kiayim baby wad wad de. Maybe he ish thinking of e past when I was small.

I played ms in my cousin de hse. Den suddenly qiqi online. I asked her party me. She gav me 2k n 1 bottle of blue pots. I now its too much fer me tuh us. But when I made money maybe I will return her everything bahx. Tt time broke le. Haix. I dunnoe whether in e end I lvl up nort cos ah kong was being pushed tuh e living room. Suddenly he cried out loud. Haix. we all dunnoe wad tuh do. So I asked my cousin help me quit s I had tuh leave. Thank God fer keeping me alive. Pls help me fulfill ny wish my ah kong has, haix.

Friday, November 04, 2005Y

2dae woke up early, planned tuh go jogging but den when woke up, was raining so decide nort tuh go sia. Slept again.den woke up at bout 10 plus. Woke up. Wahed my face n prepare tuh go ruiling de hse. Played ms hahax. Now wad? I lvl up 6 lvls 2dae sia, sho happi! Now mus continue tuh work hard. Gort 1 guy wooing ruiling, hope she will accept. Mus yong gan go n lub, dun b afraid of failure. Where gort lyk me, dun even noe wad ish true lub. Hahax. Cya! Thank God fer keeping me alive. Cant wait fer 2ml when mit huiting!

Thursday, November 03, 2005Y

Tis ish me wit Caiyun2dae woke up early. Bout 6 plus, cos dad driving me tuh sch put tt form. Wad I gort fer combination is English, Mother Tongue, Mathematics, Humanities (SS&His), Pure Physic & Pure Biology, Additional Mathematics. Nort bad, its wad I wanted bahx.

I received Denise sms said tt she will be late. I wore pink long sleeve top plus jeans and MAD white shoe tuh mit Denise. We agreed tuh go jurong point tuh get gan die smt. She paid fer it cos tis holidae I bankrupt already. A bit paiseh cos e shirt ish we 2 buy de mahx, den she paid all. The shirt tt we bought fer gan die looks kinda cool. Purple outside plus pink inside. Nice matching. Maybe will look nice on him bahx. Cos I dink it suit nice guy. Sum more gan die gort smoke n go clubbin de. Nort bad huh.

I met Denise but we hab gort nth tuh say. We kept silent all the time. I prayed tuh Jesus asking him tuh make us toke when we reached jurong point. Thanks God fer making my prayers true cos was kinda paiseh nort tuh toke. We listen tuh Denise de mp3. it looks kinda nice. Black n silver de, suit her. Denise wore kinda sexy 2dae, lotsa ppl looking at her when we were at jurong point. Ppl sae she vain but nort tuh me bahx. I tot she wld find pri sch dingy quite a bore, but we did mention bout our days in pri sch. Especially e slcking part where we escaped from our klas room. Onli when e PA system asked us back tuh klas den we will go. Wow! So slack. We promised tuh slack at e music rm next yr oso. I hope Julia wld b by our side now. Even though e feelings I hab fer dem now ish totally different from last time, I hack care. I jus noe tt I mus cherish tis reconcile. I told her bout me liking him instead of tigger liao. Haix.

We suddenly sat down on bench n toke lotsa. We toke bout penguin dey all. Cute sia penguin. I wanted tuh join LP, wt tt side of fwens, dunnoe whether can nort. Most probably nort bahx, I dunnoe dem n dey dunnoe me. I hope it’s a yes ans. Maybe wt oso dun wan I join bahx. Dey all fwens, I go inside so lyk wad. Haix.

Thanks God fer keeping me alive. My days are once again colourful wit u around. We will stay bes of fwen even though I noe we will nort b together n will nort be in e same klas. Stay happi owas!

Wednesday, November 02, 2005Y

Jus now conference wit ming. Gotta her hp no. haix. sians. Maybe lata will conference. I m glad tuh find tt I feel great wit wt dey all side e fwen. I wonder hu ish wei2 and pei2. den ice skating wt paying fer 2 person. Hahax! I wonder when will we go. Hmm. . . will update Denise lata bahx. Denise said my wearing 2dae nort bad. Shows tt I m sporty. Wear jeans beta. Hahax. She said my wearing was diff from last time liao. I m afraid tt Denise will spread tt I m a les again fer 1 reason. Haix. I wanna learn SHE de song wit Jamie n Sam. Hahax. Training bahx, our voices. Sians. Ming said tt my voice dun suit my looks. Looks lyk gal, voice lyk guy. Haix. she ish e 1st person tuh sae I look lyk gal sia. But e real me now, cut hair le, dun look lyk e me in my fwenster. Hahax.

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