Wednesday, May 31, 2006Y

Ytd ruiling came tuh my hse. Her shuffle gort sum prob, or shld I say, her USB wad the one wit prob. Her shuffle cant remove and change songs. Becos the shuffle was her bro, there was mainly ang mo songs. Ruiling dun lyk ang mo songs. Sho, she wanted tuh try using my com. And dere! The shuffle revived! We saved it. Spent lotsa tyme putting in songs. Bout more den 2 hours? Kua zhang? Nope. Cos my com too much blogging stuffs, a bit lag lag. Den kept putting in songs, even more lag. But we managed tuh put in 88 songs in less den 3 hours! *clap* *clap* *bow* LOL. =)

My hair, haven gotten ova it. It simply sux. I cant face ppl. Dey will laugh really. Yixin came tuh my hse too. Cos was bz entertaining ruiling, yupp, did neglect yixin fir the day. Opps! Im sowie. But we did chat lotsa afta ruiling went home. She was concern bout me. I knew it was becos no one seem tuh pay attention tuh me. Maybe she feels bad? Oh, I dunnit tt. Really seriously. I m nort attention seeker. I dunnit it. I jus wanna my peaceful world. Yupp. Thats simply it! But was quite okay wit her.

She asked wad if kai really lyks me. Will I accept? Sum how she managed tuh understand tt I dun accept guys cos I m zi bei. Ya. Dunnoe wads tt in English. Dun even think bout it. Kai was nort interested in me of course! But she asked wad IF. I still say no. nort becos kai ish bad. It was onli me. I jus wanna study and work. Maybe relationship comes afta tt. Matbe its a good start and good ending. Wait til one day when miracles happened, when I slimed down, becum taller, becum prettier. ah! Tt tyme den toke bout guys. Yupp. But miracles wun happened easily. I m somehow perfect in looks already. I dun had a face wit anything on it. But its jus ugly! I noe I mus be satisfied wit everything I have. Ya. Sho be it. Dun toke more bout looks. =)

2dae went tuh sch. Cos of tt biology. I wan tuh be 120% attentive in klas. Sho I paid attention. But sum how I still dun get wad cher means. Will read up lata. Wads the use getting intuh pure klas and be the last person. Even if I be the last person, I shall be the standard one. Yupp. Thats it! I will work hard. !!!

my results:
English D7
Mother tongue A2
Mathematics A1
Additional mathematics A1
Biology B4
Physics C5
Combine humans A2

L1R5 17
L1R4 13

Klas rank 36/42

I flunged my English, tts y my rank sho low. Even 13 marks good for poly, I cant even guaranty I can go in tuh the course I lyk. JC? Nahs. Dun even think bout it. All As except English and sciences. I will work doubvle hard for my sciences and English. Hope ms low will really help me lots. Thanks God for everything. Even though this result sux. But at least I m nort the worse. THANKS. =)

Monday, May 29, 2006Y

Ellox blogger. Haelp u change skin le. Gort a lot tuh tell u oso. =)

1stly, I m now blogging. Which means, makin blogskin, good, 1 lvl higher le. Now I can make my own blogskin. Signed up for blogskin..com and me and my sista team call focus. Made a skin for kai and sam. Learned html from kai, now I can make truly my own blogskin! *clap**clap**clap* *bow* =) anw, I m taking the downloads away. Cos ppl cant dl, for wad put there. LOL.

2ndly, I rebonded my hair. Very straight and very weird. Actually Jamie dey all accompanied me, but in the end, they ended up looking intuh the mirror themselves. Haish. At least they are satisfied wit their hair. I m nort jealous, cos I noe no matter how I change it will still look the same. I possessed some confidence because I m ugly. Ugly ppl have a higher chance of becoming good lookin cos they haven found their own style. I m nort goin tuh ask ppl tuh help me le. I mus learn myself. No one hab the patience tuh help me, even my grp of fwens. I m owas the odd one out. Be it fat, short or ugly. Everything ish the same. ::the extra one::

I flunged my whole mid yr. I really do. At 1st no one beliv me. I went tuh see mrs tang. When she say smt, I cried. She say we are lazy, I m nort! Its jus tt I haven been in sch for bout close tuh 1 week, cos I m sick tt tyme. I missed lotsa lesson. But its nort my fault. I shld nort find excuse too. Even if I missed lesson, but if I really listen in klas, I wld hab score. Haish. Qiqi was dere tuh console me. Hug hug. Ya. Jamie was dere too, haish. I dunnoe wad tuh say. I jus dunnit fwens. But I was touched by qiqi. =)

I m afraid tuh go baq tuh sch! My to0pid hair! Urgh!! I rather kip the last tyme hair. Haish. I dunnoe lahs. Jamie say, do smt tuh make it look beta and nort dere complaining. I will try my bes lahs. Anw, I m already wondering if I shld let xt enter this blog. Haish. Anw, changing password liao lahs. I did nort get tuh take photo, cos they were bz taking themselves, nvr even hear wad I say. Or shld I say, completely ignoring me. Haish, I shld buy my own camera fone. Yes! Its nort their fault. Its mine, I shld nort owas lend things from dem. Ok! Set! From now onwards, dun lend things from dem! Independent! =)

Thanks God for everything. Now I understand tt lyfe ish fragile. Thanks!

Wednesday, May 24, 2006Y

2dae went tuh sch as per normal. Count down, 2 more days tuh holiday! Most probably rebongind hair on sat yays! =)

2dae when it was a maths period, I realized tt I forgort bring notebook! OMG! I was lyk err, so panic, afraid I will be the outstanding student. But den when she walked ard, onli me and david did nort bring. She excuses me and scolded david. Phew! But den 2ml mus bring. RMB hors! =(

afta that, no CCA, so I stayed baq helped out. I m the grp volunteer mahs. But wad ruiling said tuhday made me very mad, but I did nort take it tuh heart. Gort improve lehs, LOL. She make the whole world thinks everything was done by her. Anw, I did nort take it tuh heart, sho nvm lors. Hais. But we completed more den enuff!

2dae xinjie was damn angry wit one of the 4/1 gurls. Even though they are older den us. She ordered the name dingy, but did nort pay up. Found lotsa excuses and tuo for 3 weeks. Now its cuming tuh holiday, xinjie had tuh claim money from her. Urgh!! She promised 2ml will gib. Beta be lyk tt. Other wise I wun be polite!

Tuesday, May 23, 2006Y

2dae went tuh sch as per normal. Wah! Very bz wit the yfc project. Lyk it! Love it! Even though cant be grp member, volunteer oso good. 2dae we sold many book marks and pegs. Wah, 1st grp tuh sell. Sho happi now! We sold 14 gort $14 liao. 3 chers booked from us. Ms aza booked 120, another cher booked 80 and mr liew booked 10 making it thu bouquet of flower. For his wife lahs. Sho romantic. Aahh… LOL

ms ow was very happi for us. She told us a secret. She said tt of all grps, she find us the best! *clap*. She want s us tuh get beat team award. But she told us nort tuh tell other grp. When mr liew handed us money b4 we go, we were rite infront of ryan de grp. Dey were lyk sho shocked tt we were fast. Yays! We will win! Sure win! =)

kai helping me add things tuh my blog skin. Cos I m nort familiarize wit the html code. Thanks kai! =)

Monday, May 22, 2006Y

2dae woke up early. Wne tuh sch. Last week le. Looking forward tuh holiday!1 whoo! In the past, I dun look forward tuh holiday, dunnoe why. Maybe I jus cld nort leave books, but now I owas look forward tuh holiday. Can rest lahs. LOL. Dunnoe y. sec 3 onli so stress.

2dae went on msn. Gort a guy 22 yrs old say interested in me. Omg. Sho old. Even if he ish nort old, I owas will reject, lyk me tis kinda person wun hab ppl lyk de. The photo in my fwenster dun resembles me at all! I m waiting tuh buy a camera fone. So that I can take more photos and put in my fwenster, photo tt will look ore lyk me.

Kai ish the 1st person say I good looking. Omg! Ish nort true. Maybe he consoling me nia. Nvr eva ppl say I good looking. Maybe he shld change spects. Aiyo, if its really true, his taste are bad. I m nort a good person lahs. Fat, short, ugly. Met him le, dunnoe how tuh prove tuh him. Urgh!! Time will tell the truth. LOL. Waiting patiently.

I gort baq my eng and history result. I taiko wryte bout EMPIRE in the essay. Cos I dunnoe wad tuh wryte. I tot I wrote out of point, but in the end, it ish correct! Cos its nort wad I did it from my heart, so I did nort score tt well. The total marks for history ish 19/30.
:’( I flunk my English. I dun wish tuh say the score. It ish really very very bad. Omg! I nvr flunk my eng sho badly before. CRIES!!

Oyah, I saw uncle oh yeah tuhday. I tot I wld nvr see him in my sec lyfe again cos he did nort return tuh visit us as he promised. But I saw him, I tot it was him. I look closer, took a step forward, and there! Its him. LOL. But we did hab fun toking. He stills rmb me. Says I becum thinner. Where gort lors. I became fatter, LOL.

God, pls bless everyone I know. The whole world too. God bless World Peace! =)

Sunday, May 21, 2006Y

I m baq. Its afta mid yr exam, I will be blogging and bogging and blogging!! LOL. My results are sucky. But my fwen said I mus be contented, arbo the next tyme, my result wld be worse. I dun wan. I wld onli allow my result tuh improve, nort worsen.

This ish my result::
A maths 71/80
E maths 86/100
Chinese 68.5/100
Biology 61.6/100
Physics 60/100
Social studies 18/30

Haven gotten baq my English and history result. My science ish nort very good, hope that I can improve. In physics klas, cher praised me til I cried. Dunnoe y, I cry very easily de, tts y when mdm leong say bout me, I cried. But I wun gib up on my physics and biology. I will buck. Sec 3 nort lyk lower sec, when u noe u strive in that area. This sub combination ish mine, I chose it. Sho, I mus excel in it. By the end of o lvl, I must produce good result. God, beliv me and gib me strength! Have faith, I will. =)

Ytd I went tuh SP. Cos I was the voluntary dere ushering. When I 1st reach there, was shocked that yiwen was dere. I wore lyk, nort my normal self. And dere, gort many ppl I noe, very malu. LOL. The ymca ppl prayed and gave us instructions. At 1st I tot my leader of ushering was super nort fwenly. But learn tuh accept, she was very busy. But she did help me out a lot. When ppl asked me things, I dunnoe how tuh ans and she was dere tuh help. =) forgot ask her name. [dots]

Afta I was done, had some rice wit vege in the convention centre. It was big, nice and cold. =) lyk it lehs. But to0 bad, I dun aim for poly onli JC. =P

Met kai afta tt. When sam told me that kai was approaching, my heart pumped fast. I dunnoe wad/how wld I react. Ling tyme nvr meet ppl le. I noe I m short, fat and ugly. Tts why I dun comment on others. I accept fwens. But at least, honestly, kai was nort lyk orchard when I 1st saw him. I rmb when I 1st met Richard, I ran away. Hais. But at least sat down wit kai and ate lunch together. Knew kai for sum tyme, he ish nort tt kinda bad person. =)
He bought rice and I bought noodle wit sam. He took out tissue paper when he was eating. Den when I wanna share noodle wit sam, that to0pid noodle tangled together urgh!! But kai helped me, he used the chopsticks and cut the noodle away. =) when we finish eating, he passed me the tissue, but he dun dare look up at me. He ish shy lahs. LOL. But when am finishes, he dd nort pass her tissue. Was lyk very paiseh. Lyk he passed me nort sam. Den sam hab tuh use her own. I dunnoe how tuh explain the awkwardness. Nvm.
We went tuh jurong point. Shop shop shop. Even though I dun lyk shopping. Its nort tt I really dun lyk shopping. But tuh me ish lyk, ugly ppl dun hab the rights tuh shop lahs. Cos the sales person wld look at u wit a diff yan guang. Wit that kinda bad attitude. I lyk tuh shop for things I lyk. But nort kinda gurl gurl dingy. LOL. At least when reached jurong point, we gort talk lahs. When er were tired, we sat down. Den he had tuh sit lower cos he taller den me. I dink he cant hear me. Its nort tt I hab a soft voice, its jus tt I had sore throat. When it was tyme tuh go, and sam and I board off the train, he looked at us. When we turned baq, he looked down immediately. Dunnoe wad he thinking.

It was a great day lahs. But he still dun beliv that I m fat. Maybe he jus dun speak up his mind. LOL. Thats all!

Bye blogger, next tyme den update u again. =)
God, bless everyone. Thanks.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006Y

Whoo!! Its afta exam le lehs!! Freedom ish ours! LOL
Ytd, quarrel wit kai, hais. Since knowing him, sum 1 will visit my blog. At least, he dun see me in person, and his impression of me ish sho diff from others. Tell him I m a bad gurl he dun beliv. I did nort lie. When I received that sms of his, I wanted tuh tell him yes. But I tot the will noe its me, cos its obviously me. Very OBVIOUS. But he jus said it’s a misunderstanding. Den I was too blur, very blur tuh do ant. But I told him ytd when online, I tot no point keeping in my heart. I hate liars. He wun tell me why he wun nort wan tuh show his photo. I wan tuh noe, but he kept it in his heart, he has been sho secretive for long, I wan noe wad he ish thinking mahs. Ask him smt, den he say another thing. Urgh!!

Tuhday last paper, history. Nort bad lahs. 2ml getting baq biology paper. Hope at least a B bahs. Hais.

Jus now oral, I went tuh canteen, yx was bz eating wit her fwens. When she finally sit down wit us, says nth. Hate jojo too much. Hits me too hard wifout any reason. Take my things. She saw my hp wit ms choo hp no. its wifout my permission LORS!! She lyk, admire, love ms choo for long. I noe she wld do ant tuh get her no. she wanted her no. even though I gort ms choo hp for long, I did nort gib her. And she peep into my contacts wifout my permission! **** U!!

Thursday, May 11, 2006Y

2dae wake up early, of course, gort sch mahs. Ytd, msg ms jasmine tan, but she did nort reply. Saw her sms tis morning. But she did nort confirm who ish she. Hais. Nvm lahs. At least on Julia de bdae, I found her hp no. so lucky. I sms-ed Julia, wished her happy bdae. She asked me hu m i. I told her she nit nort noe. Hais. Shiqi dey all celebrate bdae wit her. I m nort jealous, but how I wish sum 1 can help me celebrate bdae lyk tis. Nvr open party before. Dunnoe how a grand party feels lyk. Blamed it on me nort having fwens, and now rejecting fwens. Yiwens attitude also change, maybe its becos I did nort toke tuh her as much. I dunnit fwens. I just hope my lyk wld be beta wifout dem. Yixin walked past my klas today during recess. Was very weak, so did nort do down for recess. Ate bread in klas. Talked bout rebonding hair tis coming holiday. Looking forward tuh it, nvr rebond my hair for bout 2 yrs le, dunnoe how will I look lyk. But too bad, I dun hab a digi cam or a cam fone, ar bo sure can take pic as memoto.

Exam are ok. I hope tuh strive beta. I will work hard, God, pls gibme the strength. Even though I missed a lot of lessons, I wun be defeated!!

2ml mummy de bdae. Bought a bag for her. 2ml sam and jojo coming tuh my hse. Sho thinking sun bian buy cake. Arbo if today buy, mummy sure will noe, den nort fun le. Maybe today mid-night will pass the present tuh her. =)

Thursday, May 04, 2006Y

2dae went tuh sch as per normal. Obtained result for the test on history weakness og the Ching dynasty. I gort 9 marks. Did nort tell sam, sam gort 8 marks. Den cher say tt highest ish 9, but did nort mention my name. nvm. At least ah peh was nort the highest. Sam was the second highest. Need to re-do a beta one so that cher can gib 2 more marks. I wrote le. I wrote 1372 words in the essay. Lolx. Hoped tuh get the full 2 marks bahs. Even though 9 marks A1 le. Lolx. Praying hard. Cos I really do wit my heart mahs.

Sians. Nort very close tuh yx dey all le. God, bless xueting wit speedy recovery on her wound on her heart. Hais. I noe she really lub him lots. And let kai beliv wad I say. He owas dun beliv de. Hais.

God, bless wit me energy and health wit brains for tis coming mid yr exam.

*wun be able tuh post for long, mid yr le! Urgh!!!

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