Sunday, April 29, 2007Y

hie bloggie!
todae mus post!
hahas;

gort pictures tuh show;
that i took todae and ytd;



that's my muachi!
but den now the string dingy came out le;
i almost cried !
diaoness;
but i really lurve this muachi!
so cute de;
blehs;




that's my bag, xin's bag & sam's bag;
so bo liao in train so took pictures;
LOLS!



our leg, in the same sequence;
damn boliao!
haha!
but quite fun de;
OPPS!
i din send xin and sam a copy of the pictures;
diaoness;



this ish the newton MRT station;
i took the pitures cos its ORANGE in color;
muahahahas;
at first i tot the person in the picture very extra;
but den now seemed quite okayys;
cos if no ppl den very isolated;
diaoness;



using my new com now mahs;
no photoshop tuh edit this photo;
den use paint edit;
presentable lahs;
LOLS;



JAS's muachi!
rawk on it!



the big big fat fat pencil case ish my new one;
that small pic de ish old one;
nort very big changes;
that case oso nrot very unique;
but i din manage tuh find a new one for long le;
so when xin and sam says its nice den i buy lors;



i FOUND my DUCKIIE!!
omg!
my tuition cher give de;
she said she bought it from takashimaya;
cos when she saw this duckiie, reminds her of me;
i look lyk dukiie!
boohoo!
but nvm lahs;
cute mahs;
LOLS!
i miss my tuition cher oso!
hope she's fine;
XDXD



heyys, this ish kialing, my couz de nuer wors;
HEN KE AI!
but she refuse tuh look into the camera;
diaoness;
nvm lahs;
took a shot of her;
muahahahahas!
i still win;
LOLS

Thanks God for keeping me alive;
i have a camera fone;
i will use it tuh capture beautiful things in my world;
my world will change;
tuh the better;
cos of YOU!
u RAWKS!
i stone;

sign off;
yimyim

Saturday, April 28, 2007Y

todae RAWKS!
but it all started moody;

i din go for basketball todae;
cos korkor they all going ngee ann having match;
so i din tag along;
xueting asked if we can go play on our own;
but she din reply tuh update me;
so i tot it wasn't okay;
but i did set alarm clock tuh wake up;
in case xueting replied me;
but when i woke up;
i realise i set my alarm clock at 7PM;
diao!
but den she din reply me, so it was okayys;

todae i dunnoe why;
i dun feel lyk goin tuh cell grp meeting;
maybe cos im nort close wif them;
or maybe i still misses serene mummy & cynthia;
i haven gort tyme tuh tell dem yet;
im sad;
sometimes i dunnoe wad tuh do;

suddenly i received bowen's msg;
told me the meeting changed tuh 2pm;
something alert me;
i know i have tuh go for meeting;
i mus go;
den i suddenly recalled wad xin told me;
maybe it's God msg for me;
den i woke up;
i told my mum im going out;
smsed xin;
and went for meeting;
Thank God for everything;
todae i learnt something precious;
XDXD

we stead together le;
me and des;
we din patch;
we started afresh;
the last tyme bahs;
hope everything will turn out fine;

Thanks God for keeping me alive;
u rule my world;
u kip my thought;
so u decide my path for me;
u make me understand things i dunnoe;
u RAWKS!
i stone;

sign off;
yimyim

Friday, April 27, 2007Y

im moody now as usual;
im chatting wif des on9 in msn now;
we have almost nothing tuh chat;
i noe i still think of the past;
but it will onli remain as memories;
i mus tell myself;
i hate you;

ytd our family and my cousin's went for dinner at fajar;
my dad ordered all kinda ex ex food;
we have crabs;
cos im suffering from acid reflux;
cant take spicy food;
but i still took some;
jus a little;
and i had diarrhea;
i prayed hard;
i dun wanna suffer from that;
i wanna go school;
and God ans me!
he gave me peaceful slp until this morning;
i took pills so that i wun use the toilet suddenly in school;
Thanks God!

exam starts next mondae;
i mus do well!
God pls bless me in doing well!
i din eat that much todae;
no appetite;
dere's no more taf;
hope dere's taf camp;
can jian fei XD

Thanks God for keeping me alive;
ish that decision right?
maybe it ish;
bless world peace;
thanks;
u RAWKS!
i stone;

sign off;
yimyim

Tuesday, April 24, 2007Y

hie bloggie;
nothing made me sad todae;
yet i feel so vex;
actually dun wanna post de;
but now im posting;

i dunnoe whether i wanna CHC or FCBC;
the tyme slot for both ish the same;
service on sundae;
i cant go out on sundays;
i tot i wud switch church if CHC's service ish on saturdae;
but nopes, its nort;
i miss serene mummy & cynthia dearly;
yet i made new fwens in CHC;
i noe i go tuh church tuh serve God;
nort becos of fwens;
but im lost;
i dunnoe which tuh attend;
sometymes i feel lyk giving up;
i dun dink the whole family will allow me tuh be a christian;
yet i nit tuh hold on;
im tired;
i dunnoe how;
i noe i have tuh turn tuh God for help;
yet i din;
wad m i thinking?
i dunn0e;
God, can u pls help me brain wash?

des din reply me sms ytd;
neither did he reply my msn msg;
i dunn0e wad ish he thinking;
i tot i still love him;
can resume this relationship after O;
but i dink im rong again;
everything shud end in a proper way;
it shud be;
im strong & independent;
i nit no man;
i have myself & God;

getting a new com next mondae;
the delivery man will deliver tuh my hse;
it has free printer, webcam, 2 1GB thumbdrive, 10 DVD-r;
nort bad le bahs;
but i have printer le;
have another one so weird;
but den its in the package;
so jus take lors;
since its free anyways;
glad tuh have vista;
hope tuh learn it fast;

thanks God for keeping me alive;
im numb;
kip me numb;
bless world peace;
u RAWKS!
i stone;

sign off;
yimyim

Sunday, April 22, 2007Y

that's a lot of things i wanna post todae;
cos all these are happi things?
maybe XD

firstly, im glad tuh noe xin's cell grp members;
thou i dun really feel that close in the 1st place;
i did when i was about tuh leave;
when they are have cell grp meeting;
there's a strong feeling in my heart;
i miss serene mummy & cynthia;
i asked myself;
im nort close that grp of fwens;
shud i go baq tuh FCBC?
thou im onli close tuh serene mummy & cynthia?
thou im nort close tuh sam anymore?
i dunn0e;
God, pls bless me wif the answer hao mahs?
i really miss cynthia and serene mummy!

secondly;
i went tuh zhenghua CC;
rushed dere cos i was late that dae;
i manage tuh see them dance;
quite organised de;
i saw diya;
took pictures wif her;



i took pictures wif diya;
i look damn ugly!
but its okayys;
XD

had her signature too;
din get a nice piece of paper for her tuh sign;
but its okayys;
XD




this ish her signature;
had a video oso;
but too large tuh upload;
yupps;
so nvm lors;

thanks God for keeping me alive;
bless world peace;
bless everyone wif good health;
bless me going tuh church;
i can vision, so pls make my vision into reality;
thanks for everything;
u RAWKS!
i stone;

sign off;
yimyim

Thursday, April 19, 2007Y

hie bloggie;
finally im baq;
me & rolling laogong now closer le bahs;
me no dardar le, onli left rolling laogong;
so this sat going out as usual wif xin & sam;
but this tyme nort des, ish rolling laogong;
XDXD

des asked me for patch ytd;
but i dun wanna patch for this relationship;
everything ish over;
im nort able tuh reply him cos my sms burst le;
onli can use tomorrow;
i wanna concentrate on my O lvl this yr;
maybe edward's lecture ish right;
i cant balance both at the same tyme;
im stupid, dummy, idiot;
but heyys, that's me;
wad can i do?
he sae he can dun mit de;
but wad's the use of having this relationship for nort meeting?
maybe there's a way;
but i dunnoe how;
i dun dink i lyk him that much;
i dun feel love in this realtionship;
sometymes i will really hate him;
u called that love?
that's nort;
so why dun we jus separate;
u live your lyfe, i live mine;
til maybe one dae;
if we're fated tuh be together;
nothing can separate us;

i bought a new fone!
that same as my previous fone tt my sis took it away;
but its white in color;
so quite nice de;


my new fone; added themes and songs. buying the rubber casing soon XD;


this ish how much liquid 'paper' & liquid 'water' i bring tuh sch everydae LOL;


todae my daddy and mummy went tuh buy new sofas;
here's the picture of the new sofa;
my dad's on it and smoking;
he asked why must i include him in the picture! smiiles;

Thanks God for keeping me alive;
for me and des;
you decide;
cos i gave all my lyfe tuh you;
you decide wad shall i do;
u rule my world;
thanks God for the new items added into my house;
getting a new com soon;
thanks for blessing us for about 16 yr +?
thanks for everything;
im going down tuh plaza tuh see if i can shop for anything;
i will take picture of it if i get one;
u RAWKS!
i stone;

sign off;
yimyim

Sunday, April 15, 2007Y

heyys bloggie;
todae was lyk so damn boring de;
woke up, did hmwk, slp, iron clothes;
i finished my hmwk le;
except chinese essay & e maths exercises;
din bring home my e maths textbk;
heng passing up on tuesday;
hope can finish tml;
dun hav chinese essay paper le;
tml needa buy one;

jane tagged jus now;
which actually surprised me;
she did use the com todae;
she she said sry for hurting me;
i was shocked in a sense;
cos i duunoe which post she referring;
anw jane, u din hurt me wors;
we're fwens foreva;
jus nit u toke a little;
yea, that's it;
she sit infront of me now;
kinda good, cos can do work together;
this yr's o lvl i mus tt kinda grade i wanna;
thou i may nort choose the good JCs;
but i mus get their marks;
God, pls bless me so;
bless me wif determination & perseverance;
thanks;

rolling laogong called me jus now;
which i was shocked tuh hear wad she said too;
i know we're nort tt close now;
but i know our fwenship will turn beta;
im glad she did tell me how she feel;
maybe i shud jus pay a little more attention on my fone;
jus a little;
rolling laogong, sorry for neglecting you at tymes;
i will nort pangseh fwen de;
cos you were by my side when i nit fwens;
yea, thanks and sry for everything;
XD

Thanks God for keeping me alive;
bless my life with brightness;
bless world peace;
bless salvation & healing;
bless my sister wif speedy recovery;
thanks!
u RAWKS!
i stone;

sign off;
yimyim

Saturday, April 14, 2007Y

des & ky officially dead on 14th april 2007
im nort going for patch again;
leaving everything aside afetr O;
he ask if can woo me baq afetr Os;
i said see first;
for im nort sure whether he's my cup of tea;
im sure that God will decide everything;
xin said a Christian cant slp wif a non;
its very true;
its that way;
but she tried tuh ditch nigel but tuh no avail;
so the onli way ish tuh bring nigel tuh church;
God, pls bless that she will be wif nigel foreva;
tuh me, des ish nort a Christian too;
but i ask for a breakup nort becos of wad xin said;
its becos i wanna concentrate on my studies;
des ish nort a Christian too;
so actually tt shud be the way;

i met benny hiin;
before he preached;
i was terrified;
the same feeling when im being sent tuh the hospital;
i dunnoe why i felt that way;
i jus hang on;
cos i wanna be healed;
when dere's salvation, dere's healing;
its 100%
so when all sins are forgiven, the ppl are healed;
miracles does happen;
a woman that lost 62 yrs of hearing due tuh fungi infection;
regained her hearing;
amen!

i noe i will be healed;
when dere's faith and vision, God creates provision;
thanks God for being dere;
being so great!
i visioned me being a christian;
i visioned me being healed;
God, pls create all these provision;
dere will be faith;
for u are great;
thanks!

i will be having new;
handphones;
computer;
sofa;
cupboard;
pencil case;
woot!
that's cool!
bless me wif a vista flat screen;
thanks God;
i believe in you;

thanks God for keeping me alive;
bless world peace;
salvation and healing all ard the world;
prayers tuh be heard;
thanks!
u RAWKS!
i stone;

sign off;
yimyim

Tuesday, April 10, 2007Y

WOOT!
todae ish a happy dae!
i wanna skip schooling tt kinda boring stuffs;
and concentrate on one piece of good news;
XDXD

i can go tuh singapore indoor stadium le!!!!
tuh mit the healer;
tuh get myself healed;
miracles does happened!
THANKS A THOUSAND TYMES TUH:
JESUS & YIXIN!
thanks for praying hard;
even prayin in your blog;

lord, i seek your help in blessing yixin wif great health;
shower her wif happiness;
for she ish your spiritual child;
thanks;
LORD! you are SO SO SO great;
I LURVE YOU!

i wanna get myself healed physically and spiritually;
now i can physically;
hope i can go tuh church;
i wan tuh go!
i mus go!
i have tuh go!
but how?
Lord, pls help me;
bless me wif another miracles;
i believe in you!
u are great!
XDXD

i know tt i will definitely be cured;
no doubts;
no suspicions;
for Lord ish always so great!

JAS will be dere i suppose;
hoped so;
todae din really toke tuh sam;
or maybe i shud sae i din toke tuh her at all;
until when i went polyclinic;
she sms-ed me and asked me why i go dere;
den we chatted abit;
she pei me finish my napfa todae;
wif jojo ard of coz!
=.=!!!
but quite touched de;
cos everybody left sch le;
or went baq klas le;
onli left we 3 fourniine de;

quite happy tt ppl actually went tuh fourniine de blog and tag;
ah moi faster update post!
ben faster update admin stuffs!
LOL;

God thanks for kiping me alive;
bless this world wif peace;
with great great great health;
thanks for kiping des by my side;
i will cherish every moment;
yeA!
u RAWKS!
i stone;

sign off;
yimyim

Monday, April 09, 2007Y

once a loner, owas a loner;
im baq tuh square one;

im damn left out in this freaking world;
dunnoe wads wrong wif todae;
perhaps its jus because i sux at quality as a fwen;
or perhaps im jus nort tt type of person dey see as fwen;
wad am i?
im nothing;
n-o-t-h-i-n-g;

firstly;
i was left out during pe;
sam din join us;
for any reasons;
i was in the badminton gurls' team;
din do well;
din managed tuh shot in;
i noe when im wif dem;
IM LEFT OUT;

secondly;
when sam has a choice tuh chose either pei me or jojo;
she chose jojo;
yea!
she cant live wifout jojo;
dunnoe how many tyme on earth did she left me out!
im sick and tired of all these nonsenses and craps!
leave me alone for all i care;
no jojo den find me;
wad am i?
im NOTHING;
n-o-t-h-i-n-g;
i dun exist on earth;
marry jojo lahs;
fucked off;

thirdly;
dar sae when eva i nit him jus let him noe;
he will be down;
todae im damn left out in sch;
but in the end he left me out as well;
isn't tt a promise?
i shud nort be so to0pid;
believe him;
i shudn't;
he dun wan tuh come;
he was at home;
i tot he finish sch at 5, mine at 4.30;
so i tot i will jus bath den rush down plaza mit him;
but he jus said he cant cos he has a lot of hmwk;
jus tell me u dun wish tuh come down lahs;
i will jus leave u alone;
i will be independent;
i dun wan tuh rely on u anymore;

todae sucks;
when i reach home;
i told my mum that i nit tuh get the physics tys;
she jus gave me an angry face;
lyk i wanted it purposely;
u dink i lyk tuh spend my parents money?
i dun!
wheneva i can fork out;
i wil jus buy things on my own;
things i cant afford i have tuh be thick skinned;
ask money from them;

why on earth m i existing on earth?
i cant go church;
i cant do anything;
im useless;

thank God for keeping me alive;
hope tml will be a beta dae;
let my tears flow smoothly;
everything will be ok;
thanks;
i love you;
u RWAKS!
i stone;

sign off;
yimyim

Sunday, April 08, 2007Y

im baq;
after a few days nvr post;
was quite busy;
ytd was busy shifting my room;
which actually means tt my old study room ish now my bedroom;
and my old bedroom ish now my study room;
quite okays;
but a bit weird;
nort quite used tuh it;

from tomorrow onwards;
i gonna pei xin during recess or lunch;
if i feel too hungry;
den i shall grab my biscuit;
can jian fei!
so happy too XDXD

i dun feel lyk going e maths lesson;
nort becos i dun learn things dere;
nort becos i dun lyk mr kumar;
jus tt im left out;
no friends;
i tot i can be independent;
but now i realise;
even i have difficulties in e maths hmwk;
i dunnoe hu tuh approach;
im alone;

todae actually wan go lot 1 with dar;
now i realise i will miss him so much;
den cherish the tyme we're together;
hope we can still have fun during the anniversaries;
tata dardar;
XDXD

thanks God for keeping me alive;
bless world peace and great health;
u RAWKS!
i stone;

sign off;
yimyim

Friday, April 06, 2007Y

NUMBER 23 RWAKS!
it jus rawks!
i tot it was lyk a love movie or something;
cos the picture outside the cinema showed a man and a woman;
but when it showed blood stains everywhr;
its kinda scary bahs;
gort one part when the woman in white dropped dead from building;
scare me sia!
LOL!
i jumped up lors!
but the movie really rawks!
u guys shud check it out!
the klas nvr watch really a pity;

met serene mummy & cynthia todae!
was so glad!
but some parts we did pause;
finding topic tuh talk;
maybe cos we din mit up for so long;
there are distance between us le bahs;
but i will still pray for cynthia's 2008 dream!
God, pls bless miracles!
XD
thanks;
i want tuh go serene mummy's hse again!
i wan make sushi!
i wan see her rabbit!
LOL;
God, bless serene mummy get a cute, chubby & healthy baby!
i wan be the baby's god sibling!
[cos sam sam sae godmother i too young =.=]
tuh cynthia & serene mummy::
dun worry wors, gort problem i will find u guys de;
and i will hea ur advices;
God bless!

after todae's meeting;
im more certain tt i wan tuh be a righteous Christian!
i wan tuh go tuh church!
God, pls bless me!
really really do!
i believe you!
i lurve you too!
XDXD

todae actually wan take neoprint de;
cos we cant mit tt often le;
but den dar sae use the $ for arcade;
since i wanna play;
i went for bears!
but din get any in the end;
was thinking get smt out of todae;
as a souvenir;
but din managed tuh do so;
haish;

he sent me home;
i asked him go home;
cos dun wan let my parents see;
he walked off;
i walked off;
den he suddenly turned baq;
kissed my on my check;
den run off;
scare me;
i jumped;
>.<

thank God for keeping me alive;
bless world peace;
bless the great remembrance of good friday;
u RWAKS!
i stone;

sign off;
yimyim

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