Saturday, December 31, 2005Y

ellox blogger. . . 2006 coming liao lehs. . . i dunnoe whether i shld be happi or saddy. hahas. quite lookin ferwad tuh our (denise n i) first meeting. haven decide where, let denise decide bahs. hahas. sigh. thinking of new names fer my blog (ya, changing add again. dunnoe fer how many tymes le), but jus cant think of 1. sigh. hais.

happi new new yr tuh all my fwens, especially tuh those hu saw tis msg. new yr means new self. be a beta self. my God bless euu. =) take care!!


2dae did nth real much. Went fer training in the morning. Hab lunch wit Geraldine, ruiling and Valerie. My 1st tyme habing student meal at mac. I long tyme never eat burger le. =) but its too fattening. =(
went home, used com fer a while, felt tired, wanted tuh slp fer a while but wanted tuh complete ruiling de compo fast, so I wrote it. Nort really done yet but more den halfway through. My sista de oso. =)
denise called when I wrote halfway. We were lyk wanting tuh toke but no subjects came out. Oh my. I was thinking lyk, wad shld I toke? Think hard. Find smt interesting. But tuh no avail. =( but managed tuh pass her my blogger web. =)
saw my parents went out, wanted tuh update blog. Told her tuh mit in msn. Hahas. She did nort notice tt I already logged in. hmph!
We toke, asked her tuh help me tag my blogger, but she say let me wait. -_-|||
I found a skin fer my netball web. Still updating. Hope tuh get a beta webbie. =)
* oh my, I m so lookin forward tuh denise de new hse. Even though feel sad tt she leave so far. =( her condo de service cool man. Gort gym and everything. Oh gosh, I cant wait tuh get dere. =) long tyme nvr c her parents le, wonder how are dey. Hahas.

Went tuh dinner at pending. I dink I m gonna add weight again. Ate too much. Oh! Hais. Went home wit a big tummy. Hahas. No much sit up can help now. Lata doing 200, same. Brought mp3 dere but did nort get any chance tuh listen, it was simply too noisy! Thank God fer keeping me alive. Make denise life colourful. Fill me wit determination tuh live life on. Thanks lotsa. =)

Thursday, December 29, 2005Y

2dae I accompany denise tuh NUH. Was nort a very long trip. Dun wanna b late, so I set off early. Waited fer denise fer bout more den 25 mins? Hahas. At least she did appear. Hais. She scare me off the building, hahas. She told me she took taxi here, feel a bit bad cos maybe it was me rushing her here bahs. Waste so much money. Hmm. . . we took the mrt tuh BV(dunnoe how tuh spell :p), den we took mini bus dere. When we reach liao, we walk tuh clinic a. hahas. We frm lotsa ppl ova dere wait til left 2 ppl ova dere, den finally can go home. Hahas. So long, but fun. Denise took urine n blood test. I noe she ish afraid, but dunnoe how tuh console her. Hais. The nurse took 2 tymes. 1st, dere ish no blood, nort a single drip! Ouch, painful sia. Den the second 1, the nurse let it drip slowly. Wah, I wonder how denise tahan de pain sia. Hais. Denise mum ask denise tuh treat me lunch, wah, so ke qi. No nit mahs. Jus take it s me tour around Singapore. I haven been tuh NUH by myself. Tis learning experience ish also very valuable. Hahas. =)
denise saw the cute doc tt took care of her during her stay in hospital, wah, but fate onli happens once. But it was lyk a miracle, cos the doc werent suppose tuh be at room 15. =) it was lyk a big surprise. And den b4 denise can toke tuh him, he went up le. (-_-|||). We went down tuh hab lunch, denise did nort eat, hais. Me dun wanna denise wait til too long, so ate fast. Was full, cant walk. We sat sum where in the lobby, and chatted. Denise wanted tuh work hard. Way tuh go! Tt was a great thinking. But cant owas think, mus move oso hahas. I will help u in wadeva I can. =)
went tuh plaza afta tt, denise ate dere and we chatted lotsa more. We toke bout pri sch days. =) I tot denise wun lyk, but we laugh s we toke. Lol. She say ask her out wheneva I can. But I ask her tuh ask me out. She said tt she dunnoe asking me out lyk tis ish an impose. Nahs. Dun worry too much. Take care n b happi.
Thank God fer everything. Let us toke much more! Thanks lotsa!!! =)))

Tuesday, December 27, 2005Y

Lets see new photos..



Tis ish qiqi n me



Tis ish me n RuiLing...



Star on my bed. qiqi, me, my sista, ruiling.



Me...


2dae I m so fed up, so I m thinking wryting tuh my blog wld b a great idea. My sista made me so fed up 2dae. Cant stand her. FIRST, (we r making a booklet of tracks of cds we collected) she ba zhan the whole com & do it herself. Designing herself. When I wanted tuh help, she shoo me away. WAD kinda LOGIC ish tis? She nvr EVA listen tuh me. Becos she had NO respect fer me s her sista. When eva my parents ask me tuh ask her do things, I will owas say, u tell her urself. Nort tt I m selfish tuh ask dem do tis n tt wifout helping, but its jus tt my sista simply DUN listen tuh me. I do things wheneva she ask me tuh, m I nort good enuf? The com ish bought under my name, fer my hmwk. Her fwens de sibling dun let her fwen use the com, did I nort? Wad did I do tuh deserve tis?! SECONDLY, she surf the net, when qiqi toke tuh me, she reply HERSELF. Okies, nvm, I let her type. She talk fer me. When I said A, she typed B. wad ish tis? Lata another misunderstanding between me, ruiling n qiqi. I m so fed up. When I told qiqi the truth bout my sista nort letting me use the com, my sista snatched the key board away n wanted tuh type sum thing else. Sigh. I cant even toke tuh my fwen? Wad kinda LOGIC ish tis? I cant stand it anymore. She ish reading peifen de blog. I m right beside her reading, she wun let me read. She jus simply scroll up n down wheneva she lyks. Oh GOSH. Wad kinda sista ish TIS?!?!
And lastly, I TOLD her tt I wanna use the net. She d/c afta tt. Wahlau. I wanna use the net and she d/c? hais. I hab nth more tuh say. When I scold her she say, u wanna use the com wad, I let u use lor. U wanna go net, reconnect urself lahs. Wad the heck!? Wheneva she ish angry, scold me, fret temper on me. Serene mummy taught me tt wheneva u r angry, n u fret temper on others, its UR fault. So I take it easy. Nvm de. She will get her own retribution. I owe her in my previous lyfe der. Sicko! I long tyme nvr scold bad words liao, but I simply mus say now. FUCK!!! I dun mind me creating a sin, I will accept punishment. I JUS SIMPLY CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!!!!!! :S

Thanks, I feel so much beta now. Phew. =) m I bad in saying tt God, hais. Nvm lahs. I accept any punishment.

Sunday, December 25, 2005Y

2dae wake up quite early. Went woodlands tuh eat den went tuh visit ah kong. My sista helped sze hui tuh do her blog den I link her. My sista played maple s well. Den I played mine. Sze hui say will b giving me 50 k. at least now I hab money, thanks lotsa. =)
2dae Christmas but nvr do ant. Lata going out eat I dink. Actually wanted tuh accompany denise tuh nuh fer her appointment but cant. Gort training on the 28 n 30. hais. I dun wanna face coach. =(

Merry X’mas tuh all hu visited here, may all ur dreams cum true. =)

Jus came back frm fajar so here tuh type sum more words. Hahas. I ate ice kachang!! Wow! It had been sho long since I ate ice kachang!! I m willing tuh do 100 more sit up fer tt. Hahas. Oyah, managed tuh sit up tuh 200 le. But will maintain til I m used tuh it b4 I add 10 more in 2 days. God, bless me fer tt. Bless the world peace too!! Good day everyone, God bless. =)

Saturday, December 24, 2005Y

2dae ish christmas eve. It’s a dae all christmas shld b happi celebrating. Me? Nope. I stay at home. Did nort go out. Sigh. No program on. Jamie gave me a cross necklace, wanted tuh wear it everyday s part of my lyfe. Cant. Wait til my parents see, I die. Sigh. Shld I continue tuh hold on s a Christian? I noe my parents wun b Christian de. Maybe I cant predict so far. Dunnoe. Sch gonna re open. Bought everything le except sum pens, mathematical set, pure physic n e maths bk. Sians. Netball ish part of my lyfe. Shld I gib it up jus becos I m no longer in the sch team? God, pls tell me. Guide me along the way. I m tired. Thanks lotsa.

Friday, December 23, 2005Y

2dae woke up early. Nort very early though. Baby came in the morning so woke up early. I watched teevee and ate porridge. Went downstairs. When I came home, saw ruiling de sms. She miting a guy 2ml at orchard. Ask me whether if I can go nort. Hahas. I dunnoe. Lata call her den decide. Maybe I going count down. If its so, I cant go. Hais. 2ml Christmas eve. I dunnoe how tuh spend the day. Hais.

Today sam n jamie cum tuh my hse. Dey nvr say but I noe tt dey dun wanna make me feel left out and wanna make up fer tt dae I saw dem at plaza when dey nvr ask me go. Tt day I wanna cry when I left tt shop wifout telling dem. I dun mind dey nvr ask me tuh go. I dun mind how ppl treat me. I noe we r separating le. I noe we cant b together again. The grp of fwens will separate. No matter how hard I tried, no matter how hard I wanna hold on. Denise n Jamie 2 sides of fwens, now I will choose Jamie tis side. But now, its ova. Its too late. Ppl owas regret when they nvr cherish. I nvr cherish. I dun wanna their concern at first. Now, I cant make up tuh dem. Sigh. . . can feel tt xueting oso find me a bore. Hais. 2dae walked down tuh lrt wit dem. Send dem home. I said tt I will feel extra if I go count down 2ml. I will, definitely. But I said in a way/tone tt lyk wanna dem tuh console me. I mean it. Maybe I sldnt hav said it. Maybe I shld jus keep in my heart.

My msn cant use liao. If my fwen tt I gav my blog add tuh came here n read my diary, maybe dey will c: merry Christmas Gabriel, jingting, Jamie, sam, xueting. And all my fwens I noe. Hahas.

My life ish going tuh b an empty shell again. Qiqi wun come tuh my blog so often liao. Me n her lyk so far apart liao. Jamie n sam change a lot oso. Y ppl change so fast. Onli I haven change yet. Den when will I change? Hmm. Dunnoe. God, teach me how, I dunnoe hu m i. take me away frm my complicated world. Thanks lotsa.

Wish Jamie n sam 2ml de interview ish a success. Hahas. Thanks fer the gift!!

Saturday, December 17, 2005Y

Ellox blogger I m back. Ytd sick sho nvr wryte tuh u, gort miss me nort? Hahas. Ytd was horrible. Totally horrible. Yucks! Vomit the whole day. Dunnoe wad I ate. Maybe it’s the ham I ate in cy de hse. Nvr tell my parents cost dey already dun really lyk her le, lata misunderstanding even worse. Dun wanna lose her s my fwen. Stomach ache the whole day. Hais. Cant even hav a peaceful nap in the aftanoon. Tot vomit finish le will b alrite, but no. hais. Eat wad, vomit wad. Sigh. Den finally call my dad tuh fetch me tuh clinic. Was a hard trip dere. Cant walk properly. Doctor haven reach yet when we arrive. Sigh. Mus wait again. I wanna giv up. God gav me the strength tuh persevere. Bought medicine home. Ate but vomit everything out again. The jab doc gav works at nite. I dun feel tt much pain. Manage tuh sleep. Woke up at bout 2 plus eat medicine. Lata at 3 plus, mum cooked porridge fer me tuh eat. Den finish rest of the medicine. Had a peaceful sleep, did nort vomit again til now, thank God. =) now feel a lot beta. Can type diary means beta liao mahs. =) hahas. Take care. Haven reply Jamie n denise de sms. Opps! Hahas. ;)

Tuesday, December 13, 2005Y

2dae went fer bball section wit alvin, henry, JiaJun, weiqing and the galx. Quite shuang cos can shoot many balls. Afta tt we went home tuh bath change n prepare tuh go bugis. Was very excited cos 1st tyme go mahs. Wonder how it look lyk. Hahas. Waited fer dem at the bus stop fer bout 40 plus mins? Cos nort really gort enuf tyme. The distance between my hse n the bus stop nort even 1 km away I already find it very very rushing ler. Hahas. Den we board on the bus. Met qiqi at her bus stop. We took photos on the bus wit qiqi new hp. Hahas. Fun! Den we play play til lost our way. We missed the bugis stop n ova shot. Hahas. Had tuh walk. We went city mall den took mrt tuh bugis. Was hot in bugis, cos even big place walking space oso squeezy mahs. Den bought my bag at $30. good liao lors bargain frm $38 tuh $30 hahas. Bought pencil case frm bugis de mall. Gort air con sum more spacious, beta tuh walk sia. Leg hurt lahs of course. The sprained part. Sigh. Den bought my sista n my pensil case. Went home afta tt lors. Hahas.
Thanks Jamie, xueting, qiqi n Sam Sam accompany me go buy things, cos they nvr buy mahs. My mum say can go buy the 2 shirt which we saw ish nice during new yr. hahas. Good bahs. Thank God fer keeping me alive. Pls make my life meaningful. :)

Friday, December 09, 2005Y

Saturday, December 03, 2005Y

Hey yoZz Blogger! Long time no c ler. Gort miss me nort. Hahas. Cos tis few days bz wit netball and personal training mahs. 2dae I started the 1st day of my own personal training. Did nort do much. I ran 3.44 km in the morning. Hmm. . . went home afta that tuh hab my breakfast. Den hors, smt unbelievable happened. Ruiling called me. Den we met outside mac. She treated me ice cream. Hahas. We ate fries and bought sports drink. Walk around fer a while. Heard jun yang sang guardian angel. Nice sia. Den she came tuh my hse and we talk real lot. I helped her burn 3 disc. She wat tuh buy a bag tuh hold discs lyk me. We planned tuh go play basketball next mon. I will meet her afta I finish my 2.4 km run. Ytd I saw qiqi at the drama room while I was jogging. She smiled and wave at me. I did nort wave n smile back. I dunnoe how she react. Hais. I noe now me n her lyk heaven n earth. So far apart liao. Den I dun go her hse often liao. I afraid go her hse lata she leave me alone again. Hais. God, teach me wad tuh do. Thanks lotsa.

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