Wednesday, February 28, 2007Y

i changed my blog add;
i remove the pw thingy;
i put up my blog add on my msn personal nick;
hav i opened up my world tuh anyone else?

but i noe;
i cant post lyk before;
gort anything jus let it out;
cos once its a opened blog,
everybody can enter;
everybody can see;
i wan a more secured password;
wait til i decide on which web hosting;
wait til i hav the tyme;
wait til kai ish free;
thanks kai for everything oso! ^^
FOCUSILATE rawks!

i really hope peiling wun leave focus;
we are TEAM;
we can share joys and face obstacles together;
will FOCUSILATE stay?
i hope so.

having test this whole week;
damn stress;
still haven help rolling laogong, SQ & sam make blogskins;
my sis oso slack @ dere dun wan help;
hope i can make tyme for tt ^^

God, thanks for keeping me alive;
thanks for everything;
you are wonderful;
^^

i dun wanna ask him tuh change;
he shud be himself;
nort me controlling him;
he shud act and behave lyk himself;
i will learn tuh accept;
i will;
i will try;
hope everything ish fine.

Sunday, February 25, 2007Y

hie blogger! im back! after so many days , here tuh update =D

ytd went tuh sam de hse,
i din really wan tuh receive ang bao from her mum;
jus wanna sit sit and eat magi mee!
but den new yr ma, bound tuh hav ang bao de;
jus dun wan tuh receive $$ from her mum;
though i noe it will be a small one.
but den, i receive lors.

sam have a stead le;
i told des earlier;
and des went HUH so fast?
tuh me, its ok;
cos sam nvr lyk hammy de ma;
hope edward will treat sam better;
hope they lyk ea other;
hope they 1314 3344 ^^

we went tuh jurong point;
jojo had tuh go home;
we walk ard;
i feel so stress cos des kept walking so close tuh me;
i know he want tuh hold hand;
i kip rejecting;
cos i was nort mentally prepaid i guess;
i kip walking beside sam;
but i know when edward come, sam will b wif him;
i know i mus face the problem sooner or later;
but;
izzit a problem?

edward and sam had a relationship faster;
they held hands le;
and edward kip huggin sam;
its ok tuh me too;
but den i jus dun wanna hold hand;

we bought a ring, it cost toal $65.50
but den des nvr reply me in msn;
so nort posting the ring this entry >.<
anw we did held hand;
towards the end;
hai hao bahs;
i din ask him send me home;
cos i feel lyk rushing home myself;
the pencil case i wan cost $27.95!
EXPENSIVE!
saving hard tuh buy;
T_T

thankGod for keeping me alive;
learn tuh love, nort tuh hate;
i will try my best!

Tuesday, February 13, 2007Y

CAMP RAWKS!

i was in camp on the 9th and 10th, which 10th ish my bdae;
den i actually dun wan let ppl know de;
xin, sam and jojo actually wanted thu sing bdae song duing dinner;
i ok wif the idea;

den marvin, our trainer asked us our b dates;
den i had tuh sae;
when i sae my bdate;
the aeroplane flew over;
very noisy;
cannort hear;
den!
sam and jojo sae [her bdae 2ml!]
den marvin oso shock >.<
but tt nite, dey seem forgotten;
din sing song;

the next dae,
i din noe;
den marvin ask the whole sch sing;
cos everybody eating breakfast;
so qiao, kim tiao oso bdae;
den make us both stand on chair MALU;

but it was memorable;
mrs tan bought a cake specially for me;
hahas.
gan dong;
T_T

din receive alot presents this yr;
its ok;
cos gort ppl pei jiu hao le

hope 49 foreva!

Tuesday, February 06, 2007Y

im damn moody todae again;
i dun let ppl come my blog de;
cos i wan real feelings in my blog;
tuh actually post my feelings;
no nit anybody see;
but somehow, i open my world tuh certain ppl;
which i dun at first;
ppl ask me den wad for i kip a blog;
i said its my personal fwen;
maybe i still dunnoe how tuh explain my own feelings;
dunnoe how tuh face ppl bahs;

i had TAF in the morning;
den subsequently, i hav PE;
den after tt i hav recess run;
i dunnoe;
too much acid in my stomach;
i cant hav recess run;
i noe, cos i alr having gastric pain;
so i told mr liew;
and was excused tuh hav some food;
but den;
im owas gaining weight!
sure cant fit into my new clothes;
T_T

i really feel so pressured & stress wheneva wif des;
ish accepting him in the beginning rong?
im the more serious type;
but he ish nort;
i told him i dun he joking ard;
and hao lian ard;
he did nort change;
maybe he did, but i din see ant;
he ish a lame joker;
i understand;
but the thing ish, his joke dun make me luff;
tts really worse lors;
i tried tuh be happy wheneva wif him;
but den in the end when i reach home;
i will feel moody de;
wheneva in msn;
i cant chat til msn flood;
but his msn i onli reply 1 word 1 word nia;
he dun understand wad i feeling;

i SERIOUSLY hate him making fun of hammy!
i SERIOUSLY hate him sae mushy things!
all these things are kept in the heart;
but sae by mouth;
wan sae how much he love me;
ACTION nort WORDS!
i dun beliv in words!

wheneva wif him, i gort no freedom;
he wants tuh noe everything;
even hu sms me;
i sms hu;
wad i sms-ing;
EVERYTHING;
maybe he ish jus being concern;
maybe he really love me til . . . ;
BUT!
i dun lyk his love;
i dun lyk this kinda love;
i cant afford it!
its too heavy;
too burden-ing;
its too pressurizing;
its too stressing;
i cant take it anymore;

i will lock myself up again;
lock my blog again;
if ppl kip asking me for user and pw tuh enter;
i WILL delete my blog;
den everything in my heart;
i WILL, its jus a matter of tyme;

God, thanks for keeping me alive. make my lyfe smooth. thanks. bless me in everything i do. <3>

Simply simple simplicity x3
Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Monday, February 05, 2007Y

hie blogger! its late but i still decide tuh post;

the feeling ish baq again;
the suddenly cant breathe thingy;
i osso dunnoe y;
God, pls bless me! <3>

todae sch hai hao bahs;
but den mrs tan making me dislike her more;
i hope tts nort she ish being herself;
so tt the perfect image ish still in my head;
yupps;
ppl sae she ish a pampered woman;
tts y kip insisting things in her own ways;
anw the hmwk was too much;
no tyme tuh even study bio test and ting xie;
but its ok;
cos this sundae i gg out play for belated bdae;
so i hope can more carefree;
no hmwk stress!
hoped so;

OMG!
i saw many CDs in shop todae!
and den i realised how long i nvr shop for CD le;
>.<
dun care!
i going save $$ buy CDs again!
woot!!!!
hahas;

somehow i feel tt;
me and xue nort tt close le;
hope maple can let our bond become beta bahs;
looking forward on the 7th;
cos im DLing maple;
looking forward on the 8th;
so tt i can PLAY maple;
saving $$ for things;
tight in cash now!
God, pls bless me tt too!

todae BASKETBALL session was SO fun!
hahas!
i wanna practice tuh serve ball using layout;
God pls bless me too! <3

thanks for keeping me alive, hope everydae would be beta! ^^

Simply simple simplicity x3
Monday, February 05, 2007

Sunday, February 04, 2007Y

n0w listening tuh [wo ke yi] ;
posting too;
now mood swinging;

went tuh update my fwenster;
den i saw ym korkor de testi gone;
yupps, he deleted it;
he really walking out of my lyfe;
its ok;
its tyme i do so too.

i talked tuh mingzhi and jiajia;
dey forget me le;
mingzhi replied;
jiajia din;
its ok;
i noe i will still be their jie thou dey may nort treat me as one;
i WILL i noe!
God, pls bless dem;
if dey cant go baq the right way;
jus bless their lyfe;
no troubles;
no stess;
a carefree lyfe;
thanks <3
crying le haish.

God, pls bless me in everything i do. next week camp. if really split even and odd, den no more count down. forget it man. haish

Simply simple simplicity x3
Sunday, February 04, 2007

Saturday, February 03, 2007Y

hie blogger! finally dar bought the card reader. can send me my photos! let me show u wad photo dere ish! muahahaha!







hahas! he bring me tuh sch. cos gort night klas ytd. den on the bus he wan take photo, dun dare take >.<>






he fetch me home after night klas. when reach my hse dere, he pass me this thingy. a handphone accessories bahs. den we took a pic of it under my block area, can see its very late le wor.


2dae we went plaza. i wan tuh get things for dar, dun wan it tuh be a wasted trip. so i chose for him de shoe. found the largest size. onli this shoe hav, size 13! omg! but nvm, wif his playing basketball wif slipper logic. >.<



hahas! the brown shirt inside was from rayal sporting hse and the white jacket ish from ip zone. the jacket nice lor! beta den his purple one!


dun look @ my face! it sux! i wearing dar de shirt! loop in over my BIG blue tee. hahas! todae he came my hse, and rolling sae i look lyk im going tuh dance hip hop!



SEE! my feet size 5 compared tuh his 13! hahas! but i love wearing his shoe, very big very nice! hahahs!



MR rolling & MRS rolling! hahas! todae she and dar came tuh my hse. we took another wedding photo >.<

MR rolling de shirt. we chose it whole dae @ ip zone @ plaza. finally after much persuasion, she bought it! ip zone RAWKS! hahas!



omg! this rawks man! i love the jeans! its a half quarter jeans! i think really pei the 77th street purple tee i bought! oman! it rawks! and so coincidentally, rolling oso bought a similar brown btm as mine! hahas!


i bought this shoe as well todae! its nice lors! dink it really pei the purple tee , the jeans! muacks!!!! omg1 love it! i bought a new lace and rolling helped me change. hahas! alternate colors!

thats all for the photo session bahs. i really hate it when ppl ish angry or wad, den fret temper @ others! ym korkor lors! he ish angry wif others i noe. i din do anything, but merely telling him i hate others being rude and he fret his damn bloody temper @ me! WTH? dink i dunnoe how fret temper izzit!? ur own temper ish under ur own control, fret it tuh ppl its ur own sin. dink i care? pissed off! rude! attitude! WTF!

God, thanks for keeping me alive, if ah peh nort gg tuh admit he hit my butt and doing things tuh me! im gonna make the matter big. i will see how. i din let it out last yr cos i dun dink fat and ugly ppl hav tt kinda dignity, but now! he damn bloody nort admit it! make my blood boil i asl ppl down hack him tuh death! pardon me for the @#$^&* today. damn pissed off!

Simply simple simplicity x3
Saturday, February 03, 2007

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