Thursday, August 31, 2006Y

Ellox blogger. Today went tuh sch as per nirmal, but activities nort as normal. Today celebrating teachers day. LOL. Wen tuh hall cos of wet weather, den was expecting for yixin dey all on stage. Finally saw dem. Den u noe wad?! She nvr smile. =.= dunnoe whether ish nervous or wad? Haish. I was lyk, a pity tt her dear nvr come! LOL. But it was great. Saw xueting and wis on stage. =)

Was watching halfway.den ruiling asked ppl tuh sign mr leong de card, but she did nort ask me. [nvr think highly of urself I noe~]. She will be dere as a –fwen- when u have smt new tuh share or gossiping. But nort really dere when u nit here. Tts y nvr gib her my blog add, user and pw. Anyways, dun let this little thing bother me.Den we went baq tuh klas cos cross country cancelled. Jojo very stubborn, hate it! I noe tt her mother wants the box and the base baq. But she insist wan tuh giv cher one by one. The cheese cake already melting, so I suggested let ms yee or mrs Adeline tan bring tuh staff room, let cher take le, den we go take the box baq afta sch. But she insist tt she wants it her way! I REALLI HATE her attitude. WADEVA! She ish owas right, I m owas rong. When u bully u, she laugh til drop dead, she nvr spare a thought for others. When u bully her baq she will get angry or @ dere OUCH~~ in pain. Lyk when she beat me nort pain lahs?! Hate her tuh the core. Cant stand it! urgh!!David, zhen xiang and I went ard my block selling potato chips. Okies lahs, nort as good as my block lahs the sales. Cos many black hearted ppl. Oso cant blame dem actually. Haish! We tried our best, I was very tired when zhen xiang had tuh go off. So ask kun lin come lors. Hai hao lahs, he very enthu. LOL.Den we went baq my hse count $$. Total $250. wait! Nort today de sales, its total money plus the small change tt david bought. =.= but hai hao bahs. 2ml dey selling. Maybe I helping meiyen. =)David stayed in my hse for a while. Den he told me something disgusting bout ah peh. Hack care lahs. I dun really hate him now. Gort talk tuh him lahs. But still avoid him abit bahs. Ms yee oso okay? LOLKk, gtg le lehs. GOD, pls bless everyone. Thanks!

Tuesday, August 29, 2006Y

Today in sch hai hao bahs. 1^st period bio, mr leong nvr cum, ms yee came and take over the klas for 2 periods. Very funny cos david and jing you nort sch yet. Den zhen xiang ask me wad happened, cos ytd they five came tuh my hse stay til 10 plus. Lol. So we wondered if they were being kidnapped? =.= den I ask ms yee oso. Den we all so worried. Suddenly they 2 came into the klas carrying the boxes. >.<>

But smt happened in the afternoon. I cried badly. I noe I m a person who has a very complicated mind plus personality. Den cher came into klas for PC, she asked the 8 failure tuh talk tuh her. basically asking our result and how are we coping. I dropped a lot. Maybe due tuh the seating arrangement. Was very distracted. I dunnoe lahs. Maybe cher was right, I dun hav the attitude lyk I was before. I m lyk sleeping deeply in my own world. I jus nit someone tuh wake me up. Finally cher mentioned bout the fun fair. Can see tt she was actually very pissed off when I tried tuh explain. But she dunnoe wad I m thinking. I m a person tt lives in a black world. Very dark deep in my heart. But I appeared very cheerful infront of her. that tyme was a period whem RL and me were very close. No worries. Maybe she was so rong bout me. Its true tt I m owas trying tuh do things. Many, but wasnt tt was szeming told me God? She said try new things til u found ur talent. God, I truly believe everyone is equal, can u show me my talent? But wait, ish talent that important tuh me? I dunnoe. Fill tt emptiness in my heart. Exchange my heart with urs, for urs is a light and humble one. Heal my heart from wounds, fill me with new excitement. Find the past me, let me be the past me. Sometimes I wonder shld I give up? I English really tt bad. Its very touching. Ms yee and ms low helping me. But really hate it when ms low owas miss her appointment. I really nit help. Even though she did nort charge $$ for me. Haish! I need help!!! GOD, pls tell me where ish the true me? Show me! Tell me! I wanna noe! Its very painful tuh appear some one tuh ur fwens den another when u are wit another fwen, can I be standard? Take my loneliness away. Let my mind rest! Nort tuh think too much. Let me stay cheerful. I really nit a break! LORD, pls help me! I m struggling inside of me. Pls!

Sunday, August 27, 2006Y

Ellox blogger. Jus now went tuh yixin de blog, finally she updated. Linked her in my blog, dunnoe whther she mind nort. LOL. Anyway I nort in a good mood, quarreled wit kai. He misunderstand. Cos my geocities cant use, he used his angelfire tuh kip my html code I cant edit it, cos I cant enter his angelfire, so I asked him tuh help me add some user and pw. Den he was lyk, dunnoe y suddenly scold me. Haish. Actually oso cant blame him, he helped me a lot le. Lata I emailing him. He nvr go online, so I cant toke tuh him.

Now nort really close tuh yixin, she gort stead le. Mus acc more tyme wit her dear dear. Now gort many couple. Very heartening. Gort 2 guy in our klas lyk sam sam, den alan lyk shimin, yixin gort dear. Gort sum more lyk RL. Hmm. Great! =) but I feel abit lonely too. Wonder how izzit feel lyk tuh have some more hu love u, take care of u, care bout u. be dere when u nit him. LOL. But maybe next lyfe? Maybe.

Anyways, gtg le. Take care bloggie. =)

Friday, August 25, 2006Y

Today went tuh sch quite high. Dunnoe y. I went tuh sch early, so I sat down on the parade square. Was waiting for the tyme tuh past, so tt I can hand my summary tuh ms yee lyk wad I promised ytd. Tuh my surprise, she came tuh look for me sharp. So I jus pass the summary tuh her. she asked me tuh see her on Monday for tuition, going through my English papers. Even though ms low helped me in English, I still feel weak. I dunnoe how. I cant give up halfway, but it dun seem tuh improve. I oso dunnoe how. Haish =(

Btw, the hatred towards ms yee had gone away lots. Still a bit, but ok bahs. At least I listen in klas. Dunnoe y I become lyk tt. Haish.

Went tuh netball as per normal. Suddenly RL talked tuh me. She mentioned bout the video thingy. Suddenly we have topics tuh talk tuh. I was lyk… thanks God! LOL. Den I finally took up my courage tuh ask her y she dun talk tuh me. She says cos we sit very far. Den if she talk tuh me, the person she hate will oso turn ard. Partly because I was lyk very close tuh jane. Gort laughter. Den sum tymes saw RL looking @ us.

Flying Free closing soon. 2ml and the day afta will be the last day for selling of things. I dunnoe. But I really look upon this grp as my own. I love it! it rawks! From the birth of the grp I was dere tuh give comment lyk a member even though I was nort. Den I became the assistant volunteer head while RL was the head. Deployed work. Helped in the making of FlyingFree blog. Lots of thick and thin. I LOVE YOU FLYINGFREE. Cant bear for it tuh close. But sweet things end fast. There will owas be endless memories in my heart. Today I was invited for an interview. Was very nervous. But I managed tuh say wad ish really bottom of my heart. Even though it does nort seem so, but it is!

Helped tt ZX tuh sell things today. OMG!! Mrs Philips bought 38 potato for her form klas. I love her man. I think I m beginning tuh lyk mrs Adeline tan, but I think the love ish stringer for Mrs Philips. She was my 1^st a maths cher. Cried cos she left. Smiled cos she was dere for me. The bonding is unexplainable. I upon her lyk my mother. A great learning patner. Even though I m close tuh mrs tan. But the bond is very different. Mrs Philips rawks 43va! I hope she can return tuh teach us. Me, sam and jojo earn more den $100 for ZX within an hour. Reaching $200. LOL. He was very happy, me too of course. 2ml helping them, but meiyen how? I oso dunnoe. Meiyen needs $3000 more. God, pls bless them!!!! U must!!! So tt they wun let mr Charles png down too!! U must!! Thanks God! =)

Went home wit david. Wah, @ least gort sum one acc me take bus. Ya lahs, even though david a bit block headed, but can lahs, he ish a nice guy. LOL.

Bless my days! Thanks God!!

Thursday, August 24, 2006Y

Ellox blogger! I m baq from sch. Jus finish bathing. Now feeling quite comfortable. That to0pid uniform so big and hot! LOL.

Today I m nort really happy. Let me relate the story.

I reach sch today. When I talking tuh sam, RL cut in again. I dun really hate her, its jus tt her movement made me uncomfortable. I asked meiyen why was she so far away from me jus overnight. Meiyan says she dun noe. But I do hope tuh get an answer. I was left out once again during physics. I was the most talkative among the gurls durin mdm leong lesson but now I remain quiet. Maybe there is advantages, for me tuh concentrate on wad mdm leong ish teaching. But she started scolding the boys. Haish! Suddenly the guys lurve tuh make fun of her. they dun wan attend lesson, but I wan mahs! Haish! I hope this coming physics EOY, I can score higher tuh help pull up my overall score. =/

I m lyk so close tuh jane. Nort really tt close, but getting closer and closer each day. I was once told tt her jokes are lame, nort funny. But wad she says made me laugh real hard sum tymes. Maybe its jus becos she naïve look whenever she finish her lame joke ish really tt kinda innocent bahs. But today when I spoke bout a guy in the klas liking a gurl, she was lyk asking me hu izzit, wad we are talking bout. Maybe she dun wanna feel left out bahs. Anyways, she was nort really lyk wad RL says bahs or izzit jus becos I can get used tuh tt person lyk jane? Maybe I dun really think bad bout others. Btw, the hatred towards ah peh slowly simmer down. Maybe nort tt really bad le bahs.

Today e maths lesson jane and meiyen asked me bout blogging. They wanna me teach them blogging. Meiyen wan me tuh help her do skin. Cos mus be the onli one in this world. Even though I m nort really tt pro in blogging, I will try tuh suit her taste bahs. At least I did improve. So heartening tuh see my blogskin gort good comments and many DL. LOL. I will be going tuh meiyenn de hse do blogskin. But her hse dun really gort nice font lyk wad I DL-ed. Maybe help her DL. Teaching both jane and ah moi at the same tyme.

Today acc jia xin tuh polyclinic. Cos she dun wanna let her parents know tt she actually wants tuh see a doc for the lip rashes. Her parents would nort allow. Maybe she ish afraid tt if she insist, then maybe she cant even go outta hse. So I brought her tuh the polyclinic. My attitude toward ms yee nort really tt bad liao lahs. At least gort improve. The hatred towards her fake everything also simmered down. Thank God! I told her I will pass her the summary 2ml morning at 7.35 sharp! So I mus do it! mus keep my promise. I am a man of my words! Good! Today de hmwk onli SS SBQ essay writing and summary. Haha! =) jiaxin the case nort tt serious. But God, still take the pain and the uncomfortable away from her. bless her with speedy recovery!

Now jane, muxing and JJ wants tuh enter my blog. But cant lahs. JJ asked me if I gort lotsa xin shi in side my blog. DURHS! Tt the point of keeping blog. Den he ask me for pw and user tuh enter, he wanna noe. I noe he ish a great person. But dun treat me so good lahs. =/

Good day God bless! Bless me wit speedy hands and brain tuh finish my hmwk. LOL. Thanks God! Help em resolve my fwenship wit RL. Bless me so tt I can find my true self one day! Thanks God!

Wednesday, August 23, 2006Y

ellox blogger. today i feel left out. in sch obviously. RL kept calling meiyen. but i did nort get the chance tuh ask meiyen why RL lyk avoiding me le. izzit i do smt rong? i dunnoe. i dun have much fwens. but wit RL ard, i feel happy. can laugh non stop. now? i onli feel lyk crying deep in my heart. physics lesson i solo. i dunnoe lahs. i told myself i have tuh be brave. sam and jojo? nahs, wheneva i talk, RL sure talk tuh dem. i m still solo in the end. dunnoe lahs. i realli dunnoe. i jus wan more interaction between fwens. but lyk a bit diff arhs. God, pls take tt solo feeling away. let me be myself. i noe i can!

2ml bio test die! i dunnoe how tuh do. i gort baq the previous one le. VERY disappointed. i tot i wld score beta but in the end onli 14/20. urgh!! den physics i kanna deduct one mark. nort fair! haish. mus have confidence den i can do it! but the test results shows the oppostite. i dunnoe lahs.

now chatting on msn wit joleen. LOL. the lesbian tt added me in fwenster. quite ok lahs my day today. i hope i can jian fei success! now in the process of saving $$ buy new stuff!

God bless!

Tuesday, August 22, 2006Y

ellox blogger! gort many things tuh tell you. wheneva in sch, i owas feel lyk goin home and tell you things in case i forgot. but if i forgot den forget lors, forget fan nao beta!

today in sch, feel at least beta when jane was dere. ppl all hate jane, but i feel beta when wif her. we even thought of going shopping together. maybe its just tt she ish dere when i nit sum one tuh talk tuh. she ish nort realli tt bad afterall. maybe...
but today no PE. maybe GOD noes tt if have PE sure kanna pang seh by RL, so no PE. i dunnoe. but if it ish true, thanks GOD so much. but i really wanna noe wad happened between me and RL. izzit becos i dod smt rong? or becos i m wit jane. she seem tuh turn ova here occansionally when i was laughing wit jane. but MY de attitude towards me oso change tuh bland ler. maybe i realli did smt rong.

very envy ppl hu receive many present on their bdae. but i dun even have one tyme. maybe its okies, i did nort tell many ppl my bdae! mus owas rmd qiqi de hua! dun think too highly of urself! LOL.

tai gong asked for pw tuh enter my blog. it is my personal place of course cant lahs. jane oso kept asking. i dunnoe lahs. but i noe i wun give them. sure de!

2ml gort bio class test. now sending qiqi stuff tuh print. i dunnoe lahs. my lyfe ish in a BIG mess! help!

Monday, August 21, 2006Y

Ellox blogger! It has been along tyme since I updated. Long izzit? LOL. I have joined a second CCA after much consideration and negotiation with my parents. The SLC, Service Learning Club! It is all about entrepreneurship that I had loved all along. It has tuh do with business. Anyway, our 1^st project this year, with me the head, was the food & funfair 2006. We sold dessert and the sec 2 sold nachos. Obviously, their stall was great! But our stall was not really bad! We dunnoe how much we earned, ms ow haven told us yet. Oyah, btw, maine made a blog, but she ish lazy tuh update!! Urgh!!

I had changed a skin for you! Its made by focus team, me and my sis. I hope its nice. I think I will be letting maine noe my blog, mus find the pw 1^st, I forgot le! LOL. But it will all be personal.

Tuh maine: heys, the blog for you. Hope you will kip it personal. You can enter means the fwenship is important tuh me. [ahem]. Even though u already have qiqi, my daughter, but we will owas be in a happy family. This blog ish computerized, so u can giv comment if you want to. But pls tag before u go anytime that u came. Mus leave foot prints. LOL. Thanks. Happy bdae too!

I forgot tell daren happy bdae too! Opps! But its alrite, we will get tuh meet some tyme this yr bahs, hope so. LOL. Will she be disappointed? LOL. Hope nort.

Oyah, I scored full marks for e maths test, but failed my a maths test. I finally gotten A1 for my physics this term. YAYS! Then 2ml gort e maths test again, hope I can score full marks again! God, pls bless me even though I m slacking in sch now. Thanks! =) my bio score wun be bad bahs, cos I noe how tuh do! Pls bless my common test for bio this wed! thanks!

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