Monday, March 27, 2006Y

Heys bloggie, long tyme nvr update you le lehs. =)) welcome me baq!
Just finished my SS project. Hope it would be a success. Hais. Used too much net le, bill will be damn high, so cant update as often le. U noe sec 3 stress le mahs. Gort many hmwk. Everyday bz wit my A maths. But u noe waD? I jus lub maths hmwk. I cant wait tuh solve every single quest for maths. Hahas. Den cant wait tuh crack my brain or use to many brain cells hahas. Mad? No lahs. My passion for maths!! Right? Yeah!

Oyah, xueting noe tis add le. Hahas. She funny lahs. She say will visit you at least once a week. But I think in the end, its lyk visiting dentist, once every 6 months. Hahas. -_-. But den slowly will nort de lahs. Nvr met ppl wit so much patience. Hahas. Ya, my world ish dark, tts y my blog [my world] ish black in colour. Hahas. Xueting ish rite.

Wanted tuh asked yixin if she agree me rebonding hair tis coming june holiday. But she was too busy wit her other fwen, dun hab chance tuh ask. Nvm lahs, can feel we are now slowly apart. We are very near, yet very far. U understand the feeling. Denise ish rite, jus hab fwens will do. No 1 ish true except urself. I beliv no 1 ish true, maybe. But I, myself, ish also nort true. I dunnoe how tuh behave myself in front of everyone. And den once I made a mistake, I wld gib that kinda face ppl dun lyk? Wad kind of fucking character I hab ova here? I dunnoe. God, pls change me. I may nort look good, but I wanna a good inside. If I were tuh chose onli 1 good points, whether inside or outside, I wld of course chose outside? Y? very simple, I good tuh my fwens, yet I onli gort a little fwens. Look at all those ah lian, dey are chio, but nort good inside, yet dey hab many fwens. Loyal fwens. Hahas. I dun mean wanting a stead, jus fwens, many fwens. But fwens cld be burden, how? Too much fwens exactly. Hahas. I dunnoe lahs. Maybe.

I hope my studies wld be beta, beta, and beta. I wanna straight As. But will it be diff? since sec 3 ish yr where we gort tuh chose our own sub, tt makes it easier rite? But English of course cant. So KY! Wake up from ur DREAM. DREAM ON. Nahs. Next lyfe bahs. Hais.

God, pls make me be cleverer, I dun wanna my character tuh by lyk tis too.ppl dun understand me. Hais. Too much misunderstanding. HATE IT!!

Thursday, March 23, 2006Y

A lot of things happened. I m disappotined in lyfe. Simply. Now, me and ruiling are so-called good fwens, at least beta den last tyme. But s I m more closer tuh her, I found out tt actually she ish a very fortunate person. A lot of chances are always facing her. NYAA, she has meiyen as her good fwen, can easily get the chance. Science project, short of 1 person, she also gort in to meiyen de grp. Netball, even though she say she dun really wan tuh play any games for the team, she has gort the chance. All thses ish wad I wan. Ish wad I wanna achieve in my lyfe. But standing beside ruiling, I see chances nort being treasured. Nort becos ruiling dun wanna treasure it, but its just simply becos these things are nort wad ruiling lyk. Its nort enjoyable by ruiling. I stand beside her, seeing all these chance being gave tuh others, nort even facing me once. I was disheartened. I am. But wad can I do? I NVR thought of snatching it away and letting myself stand at advantage. No, I also dun wanna. It breaks my heart. Wad I wanna achieve ish wad oso leave me the most. Wad can I do? Will I get a chance in between my lyfe again? I really hope so. God, will u do tt for me? Thanks. =))

Esther see wanna make new netball tee shirt, I wan. I agreed. But I dun wanna cat sleeve. I wanna FULL sleeve. Hais. 8 bucks, can afford lahs. At least nort so ex lyk last tyme. Hope can get bigger size bahs. =)) I oso wanna get FBT, dunnoe whether ruiling wanna get a nort.

Can feel the dist between sam & jermaine between me. They are lyk denise and Julia, tt tyme when we are falling apart. They are from same cc amahs, CO. I m the onli netballer. I m the extra one. I used tuh be close wit Xueting, now, we onli toke when we need help? Doesnt it? At least qiqi said hi, at least I was once independent. Its owas lyk tt when ppl goes tuh diff classes, but if this fwenship really matters, diff class ish nort a prob. So wads it? I dunnoe. Let things go easily. I dun wanna suddenly say wanna break sistaship in front of dem, just let this fwenship slowly fade away. I wun cry rite? I shld hab noe it much earlier rite? But I really wan tuh noe, will I be heart broken lyk wad I used tuh be when the fwenship between ADJ was broken. Will i? if really will, I hope things wld turn out beta? Will it? God, u hold the ans. Drop me sum hints. Thanks. =))

Monday, March 13, 2006Y

2dae wake up quite late. Hahas. Den follow my mum tuh plaza buy sum things. Bought sushi, yummy!! Hope can eat it again. Com lag lag de, maybe buying another memory card, so tt som can be faster. Hahas. Now learning html code. But hope kai can help me be more familiarize. Hahas.

2dae went uh my neighbour hse cut hair. Actually dunnoe her de, it was through ah xiang auntie. =)) did nort made any much diff, jus layer much more and make it thinner. =)) 2dae evil Jolene did nort online. So sians. Me haven even started on ant for hmwk yet. How?! Hais. Atiqah scored 11 for o lvl lors. OMG! Hais. Hope can reached her score bahs. Be constant. =))

thank God for keeping me alive. Pls let me hab super memory so tt I cant rmb lotsa things. Thanks =))

Sunday, March 12, 2006Y

2dae happi!!! gort cao cao cd le. hahas! =))

jus now went ah kong de hse. 2dae his bdae mahs. but my dad haven bath, so hab tuh go home b4 we cut cake. and dere, me here updating on my bloggie. lata going qw de bloggie help her tag. i m seeing lotsa stars now, very giddy lehs. hais. thats all. going baq tuh listen cao cao cd le!! =))


Ytd wen tuh town day concert @ cashew and went home late, so cannort update bloggie. Woke up early ytd, went plaza tuh do hmwk. Did nort eat much lehs, hope can jian fei lors. At nite went tuh town day concert. Wow! Gort singers all tt went. Good. 2 malays, 2 Tamils and 2 chinese! (Kelly & junyang) =))

Tamils went out 1st. even though nort much Tamils, but ppl clapped and cheered for dem. =)) good bahs. Even though really dun understand.

Den 2 malays came out n sang. It was nice, but dun really understand. Dey did sing English song for those hu are non-malays. Hahas. =)) nice arhs. Gort 1 malay singer, sang JJ de 1000 yrs lata!! Omg! No error u noe. . . admire him liao. . . =)) den suddenly all the non-malays all stand and n cheer. Omg!! Nice, wonderful.

Den junyang n Kelly went up o stage the last. The guy hu ish crazy ova Jocie tt tyme at plaza went oso. No body brought poster, but he took a recycled paper wit Kelly pic on it and wave here n dere. Jump here n dere. Hais. I really wonder wads in his head. But really, no tis kinda fans, singer wun b able tuh b popular. Den when Kelly n junyang went off. He gave chase and jump here n dere. Omg!! =((
When ppl wanted tuh take pics, he shoo e ppl away. Omg!! Hais.

But den I ran home. A good run. Jus short dist I sweat lyk hell. Hahas. Good day, God bless!! =))

Friday, March 10, 2006Y

2dae went tuh sch. Yeah!! Finally last dae of sch le. Hahas. =)) gort a lot os hmwk lors. Still gort humans de project. Hais. Actually holiday can go put ply bball de lors, now cant. Sigh. . how? I try make tyme. Jus came baq frm concert in our sch. Now cy de mum in my hse learning English. Gort baq my results. It simply sux man. 2ml gort concert tuh watch again, den Monday gort go jt de hse, hope can bahs. Hahas. Holiday lyk tt, gou le bahs. =))

my results:
Eng: B3
MT: A1
A maths: B4
E maths: A1
Bio: B4
Physics: C5
Humans: A1

Hais. Physics n a maths very bad. Mus buck up lors. Jia you!! =))

God, pls bless me wit beta result hao mahs? Hais. Thanks lotsa!! =))

Thursday, March 09, 2006Y

2dae dunnoe wake up wad tyme. Had a dream bout ang bao money when my mother woke me up. A bit retarded cos sho long liao den dream bout ang bao money. Anyway, it was a sweet dream. =)) $.$

when tuh sch s per normal. I bought ticket for Touch community charity show. Hais, 2ml gort netball trg, hope tuh see the new coach. Hais. But I will definitely miss joseph de. Dunnoe when yiwen coming baq tuh trg again. God, pls bless her match 2ml wld b a success. =))

played heart attack 2dae in sch. Sum 1 wrote things and another ps pasted it on the notice board. Hais. Our klas de pupils hab tuh stay baq and wryte sentence. Was really wasting our tyme. Cos actually 2dae nth on, can go home earlier n do hmwk de lors. Anw, I idi my E maths in sch. Hahas. =)) finished my hmwk le, except for eng compre 87. oyah, saying eng, mrs chan leaving 2ml. I mean last dae 2ml. hais. A bit sad arhs. Really lors. She teach very lenient de lors. Hais. Took baq common test 2dae, eng jus pass. Hais. Nvm lahs. Buck up next term. =))

Wednesday, March 08, 2006Y

2dae sports day! I gort 2nd for my high jump and I went tuh collect the medal. When it was my name tuh be called, the speaker paused for a while den continue wit my name. it was expected that my name wld be called wrongly, but it did nort, jus a bit retardation. Hahas. =))

2dae wis last min say she cant run, so hab tuh persuade Jamie tuh substitute her. It was quite tough to do so, but it was really unexpected, ppl cheering, encouraging her tuh join. She was quite saddie, s she was being ova took by a blue hse member (in Julia de team). But really, Julia de team improve a lot, dey gort 3rd position. =)) did nort get a chance tuh say congrats. Say niise a few tymes, but did nort get a chance tuh speak tuh her. Really, our fwenship ish really ending. =(( we were the last, being ova took by ai min de team. Nvm, next yr we will win smt. At least a 3rd. next yr last yr liao mahs. Hahas. So fast hors. =))

went baq home wit qiyun. Gotta her hp no. adding her now in msn n fwenster. So bloggie, take care. =))

God, pls bless everyone I noe, the ones I dunnoe too. World peace. And hab a nice day!! =))

Tuesday, March 07, 2006Y

2dae went tuh sch s per normal. Ytd nite msg a guy called Aloysius. I am certain/sure that I know him through maple. But I dun hab msn, maybe did nort ask tt tyme. Wanted tuh introduce tuh ruiling. But she say she dun nit, hahas. Ended up gave tuh joyce. Jane was lyk. . . dunnoe how tuh say, dunnoe wad words tuh describe. Simply cant describe. But wheneva ruiling has gort a guy chat fwen, she will seem tuh get his no and sms him. Oh my! Ytd ruiling toking tuh her side de Aloysius den jane was added for conference. Ruiling kept quiet. Ruiling said tt jane was toking so differently from wad ish really ish.

2dae gort baq my bio results. Oh my! I SUX! I jus passed, a mere pass. But sam dey all dun believe again. M I too proud last tyme? Why mus dey owas think tt way when I did nort seem that way.

God, pls bless me wit courage for 2ml de race. Bless my team mates too. Wining ish nort everything. Putting in our bes ish the thing!

Monday, March 06, 2006Y

2dae went tuh sch s per normal. Esther see asked me wad happened tuh me, but did nort tell her cos gort ppl dere mahs. She very wad de lors. She say everytyme saw me wit uniform den trg den wear pe shirt, lyk wad lyk tt. I ONLI 2 tymes wear uniform in PE, nort EVERYTYME lors. De 1st tyme ish becos I sprain my ankle mahs, now ish becos of the hand, foot and mouth disease mahs. I recover le, but parents dun wanna me go pe, 2ml oso nort going tuh taf. Song!! Hahas =))

gotta baq my result. Sux! 1 word tt can describe. I jus pass my a maths. It was lyk . . .
jojo cried becos she jus pass. I dink she shldnt hab too much confidence in her herself when test cum. Having confidence ish good, but nort too much. God, make her cool down bahs. I dunnoe how tuh console fwens de. Sam 2dae say wad she really think in her heart of me le. I said I jus passed my A maths, den she toke baq, say you gort A2 lors. She wun understand ppl de feeling. If really, I gort A2, but its onli border line, wad for? Mite s well fail beta. She wun understand. I dun wanna dem tuh noe my result becos dey will owas think I beta den dem, den I cant even console dem, I cant share my result when I dropped or improve. Dey will think other wise lyk ky dropped le means I improve or vice versa, ky improve den she showing off. I dun wanna results coming in between us. A2 SUX! I dun wanna A2. no way! All maths shld get A1, dey wun understand. =((

I confronted Jocelyn. She said no. wad can I do? I dun wanna drag the matter. Since I chose tuh believe yiwen, den jus stick tuh my rules. No more suspecting. I nvr even think tt wanting wld be the back stabber. NVR! N now. . .
I of course want tuh noe the WHOLE story. But now, I promised yiwen nort tuh bring matters up again, I will stick tuh it. I dun wanna wanting tuh do ant tuh yiwen. Since wanting ish capable of being a stabber when I trusted her most, she can chose tuh do ant tuh yiwen, dun forget she ish a les. Yiwen afraid of les.

Thank God for keeping me alive. Pls let me forgive n forget. No matter wad, wanting was once my good sista. Thanks =)) bless everyone wit good health, let the YFC dingy b a success. =)) thanks!

Sunday, March 05, 2006Y

Noe wad? I m down wit hand, foot and mouth disease. Hais. Everything I use mus clean first before my sista can use. Actually good le lors, my parents nvr lock me up in a room. Hais. But the feeling sux. I dun wanna be lyk tis, I dun wanna stay at home. Hais. My mum nvr let ppl noe.

Found out smt. Everything tt happened last yr linked tuh wt. was SO shocked. I treated her lyk sista, told her everything. Even let her read my blog. She was the one behind everything. Omg! I dunnoe if I can believe anybody now man. Sians. I asked yiwen bout tt dingy. She said she dunnoe ant. She said she was being dragged into tis matter by jieying. Den y wld jieying be into tis matter? How? Has it gonna do wit wt again? Omg. Yiwen said tt, tt tyme at obs, wt lyk so close tuh her. Ppl all say tt she ish a les. Last tyme, I tot she was a les. Everyone (my fwens hu noe her) thinks tt lors. Me too. But when I asked her, she said no. I BELIEVED her. Now? Ended up knowing the truth. She ish a back stabber. I cant believe tt. I shld trust yiwen.
It make me so confused, promised yiwen tt tis ish onlia casual toke, no bringing up of matter again. But I wanna noe the truth. She ish a les now. She ish. But was she in the past? I changed my bloggie password, she cant enter. Dun dink she will enter again. But I dunnoe how tuh turn fierce tuh her. I was lyk too shocked tuh do ant. I trust her too much tuh do ant. I shldnt trust anyone too much rite? Shld i? y mus everything turn out tuh be lyk tis. I noe tt things are nort jus lyk tis, dere ish more tuh it. But how tuh noe? Yiwen wld nort noe tt I really wan so much tuh noe. But I noe I shldnt implicate her into tis matter again. Will delete wt from fwenster. Everything. Hais. God, teach me how.!! =(

I made a fwen from track le. Yiwen. Hahas. But nort my senior yiwen lahs, she ish ng yi wen. Jennifer ng de daughter. She funny de. But sum tymes dunnoe how tuh toke tuh her.

Coach left!! I hate esther see. I jus dun lyk her. She ish so kpo in everything. Hais. Maybe if fazilah nvr leave netball, coach may hab a chance tuh stay. I dun wanna a new coach. I dun wanna. Hate it! I miss coach.

Won silver medal for high jump. But Jamie lehs? She was lyk. . . it was nort fair tuh her. When Jamie was bout tuh jump, I said cannort. But I was tokin tuh myself. I noe she heard it, we were so close. But will she dink I m saying it tuh her. She wun noe tt I prayed hard tt she get gold. Valerie was great tuh get gold. It was her 1st tyme. Hais. God, let Jamie cool down. Take care Jamie. =))

Saturday, March 04, 2006Y

2dae very unusual. I actually wanted afta internet hao le den update de. But 2dae, 230206, I m sad. Tts why I wanna type sum things intuh my bloggie. Today coach very unusual. He was very cheerful. 2dae de training very slack too, we jus played game all de wat til 4. I tot yiwen wld cum, called her several tymes but no reply. In de end, she msg say she sprained her leg. Omg. Mus be careful. I told rl bout last yr de thing, bout yiwen saying me a les dingy. I tot 2dae can confront yiwen but nope. Maybe next wk. lets cum baq tuh training de dingy. I didn’t play ant afta the 1st quarter. After tt coach left! 2dae ish coach de last dae. I tot I wun cry, but in the end I did! I cried! When cher toking halfway, I went away. I was sobbing. Y mus coach leave? I dun wanna new coach. He ish wit us since I was in sec 2. even though onli 1 yr, but we enjoyed the tyme together. I rather accept harsh training. Everything. But dun wanna him tuh leave. Y? xueting cried too. My heart now ish very complicated. I noe tt he will still be in de sch, but we cant toke tuh him. We will hab a new young lady coach. I dun wanna! Hais. I rather everyday go morning training. I rather run 8 km every training. I rather do 3 power sets at 1 go. I rather stop every game and do tortoise for 4 mins. I rather do the things coach will wan us tuh do. I dun wanna new coach. I WAN MR JOSEPH. Since his arrival, the WHOLE netball team improve A LOT! Now, he ish leaving. He left!

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