Sunday, April 30, 2006Y

hmm... saddie saddie sad. 2ml yx dey all cant cum. shld nort hab looked too forwardly tuh 2ml. hais. maybe too last minute bahs. but at least, xueting did nort tell dem i realli looked forward, cos den, dey will come, i noe, but unwillingly. hais. i shld be grateful. let it go. we will hab next tyme tuh gather. =)


2dae woke up early. Dunnoe y. maybe dun feel lyk sleeping too long. Slp too long, the wind in my stomach wld be trapped too long, I wld feel very uncomfortable. Msg kai ytd, but he dun beliv wad I say. Hais. Time will tell the truth. He live so far. Dots. Every tyme he wan tuh ask smt, he will say pls. but sound rather formal tuh me. Gort kors lyk tt good, html dun nit worry. Lolx. Condition still the same. But gladly I dunnit sleeping pills tuh sleep. Maybe can forget bout relying on tt. But at least hab gort a baq up. Anw, tuhday I took a nap. But woke up becos I cld nort really breathe properly. Yixin asked me wad happened in sch. She did nort noe ant. But jojo joked bout me giving birth in hospital was too mean. Tried nort tuh take it so hard. Ah kong passed away, I was being sent tuh hospital. A lot of things happened. But yixin and sam dun really noe. I m left out. I m owas left out. Nvm. I gort my blog, its more den enuff. My family oso very important. Hoped tuh spent more tyme wit dem. I dun really pour out mushy things, but really deep in my heart ish lyk tis.

Bought I nort stupid too vcd, finally it was out. Spent $13.90 for tt. Quite okay for me. Since long tyme nvr meet up, I invited yixin and sam come ova tuh watch. Dunnoe when dey will come. Hope can spend more tyme together. Really looked forward tuh tt day.

Hope I can play bball ASAP!! God, pls bless me wit speedy recovery.!! =)

Wednesday, April 26, 2006Y

I m now still very weak. Ytd I was being brought to the hospital. Hais. At bout 6 tuh 7. went home ard 10 plus. My dad accompany me there. But he did nort have dinner before he go. I slept the whole day tuhday. Still hab a little breathing difficulty. Hais. I dun feel lyk lying down for too long.

That sentence was what I wrote on the 25th. Now I shall continue. Dun really hab the strength tuh update blogger, very weak. My heart will pump very fast suddenly, I owas afraid tt I wld die faster. I wan tuh live longer. So I tried my best tuh calm my self down. But now feeling beta. Breathing still a bit difficult. Slowly. I will recover. I shall recover. I wld wan tuh play bball as usual. Lolx. Thats all, I will update u again.

Monday, April 24, 2006Y

Ellox blogger. 2dae updaeted u early in e morning cos me nvr go tuh sch. Spent ytd nite terribly. Ytd cld nort breathe probably. Did not sleep the whole nite. Wheneva I wanna tuh breathe, my lungs was not filled wit air. If I jus sleep lyk this, I dun breathe at all and I will wake up feeling dizzy. I dunnoe wads happening. My head was filled wit the scene when I was being brought tuh the hospital the last tyme. It was horrible. Cos I noe the feeling of death being brought tuh u nearer and suddenly. The ray of light tt I cld nort describe. I dun wanna the feeling of tt similar tuh tt day I was brought into the hospital. Hais.

Now I just came home from fajar the cashew medical clinic. Went tuh c a doctor. Doc days I suffering from GERD which simply means that I suffered from Acid Reflux or in Chinese, wei suan. I dun wanna tt. This reminded me of yuhui. I knew tt she oso suffers from smt lyk this similarly. But I dunnoe hows her. Doc says tt I mus eat little a a tyme wit many meals a day. Hais. Jus becos david leong jus taught about tt and I m suffering from this!! Urgh!! Hate it. Why m I owas sick? Hais.

I hope I will be beta. I m get well soon. I dun wanna surgery. Hais.

Saturday, April 22, 2006Y

2dae bought a conditioner. Its HOYU brand de, suitable for frizzy hair lyk mine. Hope it works for me bahs. Nort oily de, live on de, its really wad I wanted. June holiday I going rebond my hair again. Afta bout 2 yrs and a half? Last rebond ish when I was in pri 6. lolx. Centuries rite? Lolx. Hope I wld be more feminine bahs. Dunnoe how tuh spell, means more gurl lahs. Lolx. I will change myself for the beta, I cant rely on any one any more. Learn tuh grow up. Brand new me 2008. now I just stepped out my yong gan 1^st step. Lolx. Mus jiayou de jian fei. God, wish me luck. Now really no tyme do 300 sit ups per day lyk I used to. Bless me wit the strength. =) next yr napfa aiming 50 situps per min. I noe its nort very good, a step at a tyme okies?

Hmm… dun really feel lyk bothering kai wit html codes le. Mus learn by myself. But I feel tt he ish lyk ryan lehs. All IT lehs. I wonder how he looks lyk. Skinny and tall. I really feel lyk seeing how he look lyk. Ryan now dunnoe how le. Miss him lehs. Same klas wit him Chinese lesson, but he sits at the baq. Hais. Tigger arhs. =(

God, bless him wit good result tis coming mid-yr exam bahs. He mus win me tis tyme k. lolx. Long tyme nvr ask him for his result le. Oyah, ytd shunii came here. Jus letting u noe. Lolx.

Friday, April 21, 2006Y

Ellox blogger. I m baq afta sho many days? Weeks? Lolx. Here tuh update u on the happenings. =) gort E maths klas test, scored nort very well. Cld hab get full marks, but onli 92%. Loser rite? Nvm, ova le, the next test jiayou! =) now listen tuh physics cher toke crap can understand beta le. Last tyme toke til I gong2 hais. My physics book lost le lehs!!! Hu can help me find? No stock le in spore I guess. I wanna physics text book!! Hais. Went tuh netball. New coach quite okay, but I still miss joseph. Hais. God, bless him.
Btw, kai helped me update my html coddie in blogger, but smt went rong. I hope kai can help me repair. I noe he helped me lots. Thanks! God, bless him too!! Lolx.

Fwenships simply sux! 3S=My lyfe (SPORTS.STUDIES.SONGS), since I said it, I mus live up tuh it. I dun wanna new fwens. I wan NO fwens. Fwens cant be trusted. Lolx.

Saw WT tuhday, we did nort toke. She cum netball 1st thing ish tuh find Jolene. I wun forget wad she did tuh me. Afta she went out of the office, she looked at me, I did nort look baq. I dun wanna face her. NO WAY!! Oyah, Tracy went tuh sch le! In TP. Lolx. God, Bless her wit happy sch days. Tuhday master parade, I saw AHPEH. Oh no!!! yucks!!! He sux!!! Oh nonono. Hate him. Puke!!
I saw peishi cum baq tuh sch, but did nort see yiwen and tracy. Hope tuh c u guys soon. Get busy!!

God, bless everyone. World peace! =)

Sunday, April 16, 2006Y

10/04/06:: my ah kong passed away at 8.45pm::

my dad received a call when we were eating dinner, den a big HUH? from him. i wld have guessed so. den he was busy calling the others, den i realli understood. but i was too shocking, too sudden, i dunnoe how tuh react. i noe i wanna cry, i cant. i dunnoe why. my parents rushed ova tuh my cousin hse where my ah kong passed away. i cant follow. the next day hab sch. its too sudden, i dunnoe how tuh accept the truth. too fast.

GOODBYE AH KONG, FAREWELL
WE LOVE YOU, WE MISS YOU, TAKE GOOD CARE!!

i was at his wake for the past few days until the 14th, good friday when he was being cremated. i wld wan tuh cry, crying out loud, i knew i nit that, but no tears came. all in my heart, i was bleeding greatly. i was ah kong fav. granddaughter, as he watched me grow up before he was transfered tuh my cousin hse. we went tuh visit as often as we cld.

when we walked ard his coffin on the 13th, i cried silently, fianlly. when he was being brought tuh the mandai cremation centre, i was there tuh shocked tuh do anything. we we watched his coffin being brought in for cremation, most of us cried. my heart cld not take it. i m close tuh ah kong.

GOD, BLESS AH KONG. THANKS.

Saturday, April 08, 2006Y

Ellox blogger. Long tyme no c le wors. Cos very bz mahs. Gort lotsa A maths hmwk. But I simply lub it, dun mind wors. Hahas. I ordered pizza for the 1st tyme on 5 April bahs, nort very sure le, stm mahs. Now me n JY in netball trg gort toke. But still cant forget the incident. Dunnoe how tuh forget le, me now n WT oso nvr toke le, in msn or sms. Hais. Changing password le. I think I shld nort let ppl cum in here. My personal space mahs. I noe learnt tt even bes fwens cant b trusted. So I dun dink will let ppl come in again.

New coach came ytd. I dunnoe hu she. But I dink she will coach well. She saw our passes, and said nort bad. Ppl all ard shld noe tt CCK netball team lousy de lors. Be it team work, communication or skills. Unless its referring tuh those hu r lotsa beta. Hais. I dunnoe how my netball days will be. I wun be close tuh tt coach le, it very diff tuh be close tuh some 1. she ish a gurl, lata too close, I lesbian again. Sians.

Me jermaine, samsam very far apart le. VERY. Can tell, can see, can feel. Everything. I jus wanna concentrate in my studies. From now onwards 3 S in my lyfe, STUDIES, SPORTS, SONGS. No F, so no fwens. I m closing up my heart. Closed up. Everytyme wheneva I see my closer fwens, we dun toke. Ya, nth at all. Izzit becos of me. I noe nort many ppl lyk me. Most of dem hate me. But I m me mahs. Wad tuh do? I dunnoe. Fwens are irritating. I dun care. I dun wanna anything of those. Jus b it.

Anw, I m bz nowadays, bills too high. Cant owas come n update. Oyah, I just bought sony walkman de earpiece. Can listen mp3 next tyme going anywhere le. But mus buy a casing tuh put. Maybe running 2.4km will listen bahs. C 1st. wish me gd luck for it. =)

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