Thursday, February 17, 2005Y

Tis is fer more information bout me bahx… in primary sch, I hab lotz of nick nameZ, lyk kiasu, eagle, apple. E one tt I lyk most ish apple, cox it reflected on me, I m owas a cheerful gal, with all my fwenZ, owas together going out, hang round our fav places. Tis yr, I dunnoe y, bt mayb it’s e cause of me losing my most valued sistaship wit denise n Julia, to sae it real, it was reali a big blow to me, I thought tt we could go back to e past when we r owas happi soon bt I was so rong, n of course it hurt myself, 1 yr plus already I dink, I hab already trying to hold on fer tis sistaship so long le, bt tis sistaship haben been re-built up. In sch, I hav already let dem humiliate me, wit all those fwenz around, sae-ing n tokin bout me. My attitude towards my cca (My fav sports currently) netball changed. I was owas so moody, quiet, lonely sitting else where alone while others was playin happily.i m owas spoiling their mood. Nobody lyks me, I hack care wad dey dink of me tt time cox to me I wanna hold on 2 tis sistaship. When I give up, when I begin to lyk netball, when I wanted to strive sumthing, b sum1 in netball, I noe tt I m too late in dere cox everybody hab already hab bad impression of me. Suddenly mixing around, mayb causing dem to feel veri uncomfortable n givin in to me sumtimes. I wanted to quit netball, I wanted to re-try joining e 1st cca I hab chosen when I was in sec 1, tt was IT, a senior, which I m nt beri close to, toked to me, she sae a lot of things to me tt I will rmb, its useful to me bahx. She ish caring n e 2nd senior hu showed concern to me, YiWen. To me I feel as if she was my elder sista givin me advices, teaching me, telling me wad’s right n rong, I asked her to b my godsista, she agreed. But den bcox of bad-communicating again wit my teams, n plus wadeva my ex-sista did to me, I was so fed up tt I wanted to break off tis sistaship wit yiwen, she of course accept it bt I regretted it beri much cox I shouldn’t vent my temper, makin a big fuss of everything. It’s awkard fer me to face her wheneva she goes training. When I m close to yiwen, 1 of my other senior oso showed me concerns, although I dun reali lyk her in e beginning, she became a person tt owas tell jokes, making me laugh in msn. She told me tt she missed netball beri much when tt time she was overseas. Dunnoe y, time files, actually I hab forgotten y I started to quarrel wit tracy. We didn’t toke lots more, awkard to c her in netball oso, bt den another misunderstanding add on to my burden when she tot tt I hab been checkin on her. I dun wanna tell her e truth y I noe things bout her, bt in e end I told, nt becox I wanted to fight back my rights fer myself bt becox I dun wanna her scolding e person hu told me cox wad he said made me feel beri touching, even he doesn’t c tracy tt often n dun owas toke to her, he feels tt tracy ish e bez sista tt he eva had. Brother n sista luv tt I haben seen n feel b4, wad she wan to misunderstand, I hack care, bt to me, her brother is e bez brother I hab eva seen…

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