Sunday, January 15, 2006Y

Omg, ytd Cynthia de bdae, I fergot tuh sms her!! Omg!! Hais. Ytd gort training. The team noes hu r the sch team members. I m nort being selected. I m NORT! I was disappointed. Coach says, hard works pay off. Its nort true. I noe no matter how hard I try, how hard I train, I m still the worse in the team, I m still the least talented. I cried along the way, acc-ing huiting n ruiling tuh mac. Dey din noe. I din say. I dun wanna say. Yes, tts rite. Suddenly huiting toke tuh me lotsa more. Does it means tt we r dada lyk b4? She jus appear when I nit console, when I nit sum 1s concern. I dunnoe. I just hope, we can jus stay lyk tt. Maybe. I dunnoe how lynne n jam feels, I wish I noe. I jus noe dey r disappointed too. I still hab a chance fer next yr. half of my heart tells me tt, no matter wad, I mus strive for it, at least I noe. I mus still beliv wad coach says Half of it says tt I jus hab tuh gib up, I stand no chance, I m still the worse no matter wad. I mus nort beliv wad coach says. I dunnoe. But huiting n ruiling says tt I must nort gib up. Dey all nort playing next yr, so shld i? I dun wanna play wit one of the malays. Hais. God, teach me. Saw Jolene de blog, noe tt club n sch team will combine, hope Jolene can make it. =) I m tired, I wanna take a rest. My knee begin tuh hurt again. I dun wanna anyone tuh noe. I jus wanna keep everything in the dark, hang on til the end in the dark myself, alone. At least in the end, I noe I haven let myself down, its jus tt I m the least talented.

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